c700 wrote:
So I went through IQ testing (WAIS), and my IQ turned out to be "within the normal range". Although, the neurpsychologist told me that my IQ is incredibly heterogeneous - with severe deficits in some areas, and strengths (only 2 standard deviations above the mean) in other areas.
These results made me depressed. They mean that all of my life's goals and dreams went down the shitter. I wanted to be a researcher, and do research in the areas of theoretical physics and logic. Not to mention, I was interested in science ever since I was a young child, and knew and understood things like rocket engine structure at the age of ~5.
But these results mean that I'm not intelligent to perform any worthwhile research. In fact, I doubt my IQ is even enough to get a graduate degree in the areas I want. As a result, I'm now abandoning my interests, such as model theory, foundations of mathematics, confirmation theory, etc.
I had very ambitious goals - to contribute to the formalization and symbolization of inductive logic. To attempt to look into the rules of the most fundamental and essential reasoning processes. This goal was inspired by Leibniz' dream of a calculus ratiocinator. But now, all these goals are done away with.
How to deal with such hopelessness? My life has no meaning anymore.
Don't assume that it is the brightest who go on to get PhDs and become college professors.