Hi, I hope someone can relate to this. I am 33 and currently living with my mom (hopefully temporarily) again.
She talks all the time and it seems to be either me or her talking as I also have trouble not rambling none stop. It seems to help me focus and grab onto a trail of thought if verbalized loudly and I think she is the same.
The problem is I get extremely upset instantly when she says anything that makes me feel misunderstood. Example: While I was eating yesterday she decided to start fiddling with the trash and making noises with plastic bags for 10 minutes which already boiled me up then someone opened the bin to take that bag out and the smell made me feel not too nice so I asked why do they have to do that now that I am eating and she said "it doesn't smell that bad". This made me feel completely discredited and I went crazy and wanted to throw my plate, but tried to contain myself.
Today I tried to help her with a form and had to do research, but she asked me questions while I was trying to focus on the task at hand and I lost it again. As it feels my train of thought is derailed and I am not trusted as I already came to a conclusion, but then have to explain. I explode without warning and start hitting stuff it feels like the emotion explodes.
Any insight is appreciated as I only recently started believing I am on the spectrum as I was never diagnosed by anyone as there was always too much other stuff going on... What do you think?
07 Feb 2017, 3:48 pm
