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21 Feb 2017, 8:39 am

"Just because I'm paranoid doesn't mean that they aren't out to get me."
I have spent months slowly investigating an incident to see if it was due to malice or stupidity, and so far, stupid is winning. This is important, because treating it as malice would generate some where there may be no ill-will so far. My ex was very prone to think people were trying to cheat her, and so she'd cheat them first. That's why she's an ex again.



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21 Feb 2017, 10:21 am

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Interesting topic. I've often felt like I'm on the 'outside' of things especially in groups socially, and some people are very quick to discriminate when you show any signs of being different. I've also often felt like I am unlucky and that bad things seem to happen to me more than to other people, but this is most likely due to clumsiness, and I felt this way before I had any idea what Autism even was, let alone that I had a form of it.



This sounds like something I could have written as a child. I felt I was full of bad luck. Lot of kids didn't like me, lot of kids thought I was mean or weird or stupid, etc. I often wasn't invited over and my own friends often didn't let me play at their house and I would often be rejected or quick to get negative attention always.


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21 Feb 2017, 1:23 pm

Yes, but to be fair, my suspicion of feeling victimized by everyone around me, whilst it may be overgeneralized, isn't really too far off. When I was younger I faced bullying from other kids, and I was treat 'differently' from other kids, by the teachers. When I was older, the ridicule continued in college...

The worst of it is the "harassment" I get from the general public (UK); everywhere I go I get stared at (does anyone else get angry when people look at you?), vans beep at me, and people in general just treat me badly, there have even been a fair few occasions where strangers have outright laughed at me. Weird or what? Honestly I'm afraid strangers can tell I'm on the spectrum, which is why they treat me like this, this idea is too painful to accept (thinking there's something about you that makes you "different" to other people is soul-crushing), so making up some BS conspiracy theory gets me to sleep at night lol.

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21 Feb 2017, 2:23 pm

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Yes, but to be fair, my suspicion of feeling victimized by everyone around me, whilst it may be overgeneralized, isn't really too far off. When I was younger I faced bullying from other kids, and I was treat 'differently' from other kids, by the teachers. When I was older, the ridicule continued in college...

The worst of it is the "harassment" I get from the general public (UK); everywhere I go I get stared at (does anyone else get angry when people look at you?), vans beep at me, and people in general just treat me badly, there have even been a fair few occasions where strangers have outright laughed at me. Weird or what? Honestly I'm afraid strangers can tell I'm on the spectrum, which is why they treat me like this, this idea is too painful to accept (thinking there's something about you that makes you "different" to other people is soul-crushing), so making up some BS conspiracy theory gets me to sleep at night lol.

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Mine wasn't that far off either. Kids really were mean to me. kids really did treat me different and I really was picked on more often than most children at my school. I really was rejected. Plus teachers really did treat me different. My mom thinks it was because I was in special ed. I read online by Karla Fisher that children without disabilities and who aren't in special ed get away with goofy behaviors and inappropriate behaviors and breaking social rules but they enforce them on special ed kids. I wouldn't have it when I was little because I wanted to be treated like everyone else so I acted like a black person fighting for civil rights like they did back in the 1950's and early 60's.


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21 Feb 2017, 2:32 pm

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The worst of it is the "harassment" I get from the general public (UK); everywhere I go I get stared at (does anyone else get angry when people look at you?), vans beep at me, and people in general just treat me badly, there have even been a fair few occasions where strangers have outright laughed at me. Weird or what? Honestly I'm afraid strangers can tell I'm on the spectrum, which is why they treat me like this, this idea is too painful to accept (thinking there's something about you that makes you "different" to other people is soul-crushing), so making up some BS conspiracy theory gets me to sleep at night lol.

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I'm no expert and had to look up gelotophobia , are you sure it is not your gelotophobia that makes you feel this way rather than thinking that people know you're on the spectrum.


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21 Feb 2017, 3:10 pm

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Yes, but to be fair, my suspicion of feeling victimized by everyone around me, whilst it may be overgeneralized, isn't really too far off. When I was younger I faced bullying from other kids, and I was treat 'differently' from other kids, by the teachers. When I was older, the ridicule continued in college...

The worst of it is the "harassment" I get from the general public (UK); everywhere I go I get stared at (does anyone else get angry when people look at you?), vans beep at me, and people in general just treat me badly, there have even been a fair few occasions where strangers have outright laughed at me. Weird or what? Honestly I'm afraid strangers can tell I'm on the spectrum, which is why they treat me like this, this idea is too painful to accept (thinking there's something about you that makes you "different" to other people is soul-crushing), so making up some BS conspiracy theory gets me to sleep at night lol.

I'm not paranoid if I'm right


Usually, if people react to you on sight, the cause is a fashion faux pas. Maybe you can find someone to help with your wardrobe. You may also have an uncoordinated gait, and some time with a mirror and/or a coach might help there. If vans beep, it is more likely that you are oblivious to traffic patterns and causing a delay. Good luck. I hope the problem is not a funny but false story someone has spread to boost their own status.



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21 Feb 2017, 3:15 pm

Yes, all the time.


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21 Feb 2017, 3:28 pm

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Usually, if people react to you on sight, the cause is a fashion faux pas. You may also have an uncoordinated gait.


I've had a few fashion blunders in the past, but for the most part my dress sense is OK. I do have a weird walk though, could be part of the problem.

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If vans beep, it is more likely that you are oblivious to traffic patterns and causing a delay.


No this is just when walking down the sidewalk, I can even remember two days ago some random guy in his car beeped at me when I was waiting to cross the road, then flipped me off. Or a few months back when I was doing gardening, some guy in a taxi beeped at me too :?: :?


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21 Feb 2017, 7:00 pm

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Usually, if people react to you on sight, the cause is a fashion faux pas. You may also have an uncoordinated gait.


I've had a few fashion blunders in the past, but for the most part my dress sense is OK. I do have a weird walk though, could be part of the problem.

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If vans beep, it is more likely that you are oblivious to traffic patterns and causing a delay.


No this is just when walking down the sidewalk, I can even remember two days ago some random guy in his car beeped at me when I was waiting to cross the road, then flipped me off. Or a few months back when I was doing gardening, some guy in a taxi beeped at me too :?: :?


Something like that happened to my uncle once (he's a rather confident-looking NT). He was walking along a quiet street, and a car went by and as it did someone screamed "f**k you!!" directly at my uncle, for no reason. He didn't know the people in the car. It was just a random and unnecessary insult.

Sorry to go off-topic a bit here, but I do hate it when people beep their horns for no reason. Today in the bus station a bus-driver in a bus that was near me suddenly honked loudly at nothing really, just as sort of a joke, maybe to impress some ladies that got on his bus or something. I jumped out my skin. I do wish people had more considation for people with pace-makers, autism, or just nervy people sensitive to loud noises.


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22 Feb 2017, 12:43 am

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Just had to say , I like your name. It could potentialy lead to a funny thread linking Aspergers & your country e.g. Britspergers , Ruspergers , Thaispergers , then again maybe not :roll:

Edit: Do you ever say anything out loud or type it then realise how stoopid you sound.


Ahahaha. Thank you for that, I had a bit of a laugh especially over Thaispergers. About your edit, I have felt the same and it even extends to physical things such as when you think your new clothes are really cool, then a few days/months/years later you look back and you're like "wtf was I thinking?" :lol:


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22 Feb 2017, 5:04 am

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Just had to say , I like your name. It could potentialy lead to a funny thread linking Aspergers & your country e.g. Britspergers , Ruspergers , Thaispergers , then again maybe not :roll:

Edit: Do you ever say anything out loud or type it then realise how stoopid you sound.


Ahahaha. Thank you for that, I had a bit of a laugh especially over Thaispergers. About your edit, I have felt the same and it even extends to physical things such as when you think your new clothes are really cool, then a few days/months/years later you look back and you're like "wtf was I thinking?" :lol:


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Hi, fellow Australian! Welcome to WP! :D


Thanks for the warm welcome. :)


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22 Feb 2017, 5:55 am

This is, perhaps, completely different, but, for 10 consecutive months, I was systematically, psychologically manipulated/gaslighted, and a massive smear campaign was then carried out, and, for the 5 years that followed the experience, while my mind was untwisting, I became extremely hyper-vigilant and had some pretty irrational, conspiratorial type thoughts surface.



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22 Feb 2017, 6:48 am

I wish I had your attractiveness and your talent, Britte.

I can't even design my own bedroom lol



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22 Feb 2017, 7:06 am

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Just had to say , I like your name. It could potentialy lead to a funny thread linking Aspergers & your country e.g. Britspergers , Ruspergers , Thaispergers , then again maybe not :roll:

Edit: Do you ever say anything out loud or type it then realise how stoopid you sound.


Ahahaha. Thank you for that, I had a bit of a laugh especially over Thaispergers. About your edit, I have felt the same and it even extends to physical things such as when you think your new clothes are really cool, then a few days/months/years later you look back and you're like "wtf was I thinking?" :lol:


When it comes to clothes I have had the same dress sense since my late teens - jeans & tshirts. I've been told several times that I dress too young for my age so the "wtf was I thinking?" hasn't hit me yet :lol:


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22 Feb 2017, 7:57 am

Besides maybe when I was a real young teen/preteen even and wasn't afraid of fist fights(I was the oldest sibling who ruled with an iron first) I use to think people were plotting to jump me or something, this very well could of been true but it didn't happen.