not only do i feel boring, but i am boring.
and i am also weird. i ain't normal.
what one person labels as "boring" someone else labels as exciting. (fine).
however, i am boring, even to myself.
but whatever.
"boring" is not necessarily a bad thing. as many autists, i am introverted. and hardly ever socialize. especially now that i am 34, and over 10 years after undergrad. and chronically unemployed.
extroverts, @ least the ones i have interacted with, crave excitement.
while i seek stability.
what extroverts label as "boring", i find as obsessive compulsive disorder. (one of my 6 personality disorder diagnoses).
what extroverts label as exciting or interesting, i find nerve racking. overwhelming. stressful. pressure. emotional roller coaster.
but yes, i am boring.
in my defense, though plenty of precious little "people" that act like they are interesting, exciting, awesome, cool, wise, smart, funny, and morally innocent. are. just. as. boring. as. me. to me.
and no, i ain't biased in my favor.
if anything, i am biased in their favor.
but quite frankly, i ain't got no precious little "friends", no job, no school, no $$. and i correctly feel left out of things. and guilty b/c i am lazy and unproductive. but whatever.
briefly considered Job Corps, grad school, peace corps, americorps, buddhist monastery, military.
but, seriously, judgmental, self-important big mouth extroverts are everywhere. unless you go somewhere remote and in the wild.