Making weird faces, gestures and noises randomly at work

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Hi,

Was just wondering if this happens to anyone else at work or at home or other places etc. I have a job. I have high-functioning autism diagnosed at age 2 didn't speak until age 4 and only spoke every few months up until 7. Have a stuttering problem and some speech delay since. Anyway, I have a desk job and I noticed that I tend to catch myself making the most weirdest faces, hand and arm gestures, and noises with my throat, mouth, etc. Basically I do a lot of weird crap when I know I'm by myself and whenever someone walks by most times I catch myself and I'm like 'oh crap why am I doing this people will think I'm weird if they catch me' (a couple people have caught me and make weird faces like I'm an alien of some sort). My supervisors office is right across the hall and I asked her if she hears stuff sometimes and she says she hears me all the time making some type of noises (singing, humming, mumbling, gibberish, random noises) and she told me she laughs to herself sometimes. She's come out of her office and has caught me stimming and started laughing asking me what I'm doing and I say oh nothing just being weird because I'm embarrassed and don't know what else to say to play it off. Are all of these things stimming? I think I've done this my whole life and only noticed myself doing it a few months ago. Could anyone share some insight or relate? I know I definitely do strange things in the mirror looking at myself (contort my body to weird positions, weird faces as well, gestures, etc).

Thanks guys, it ain't easy trying to constantly fit in an NT world.

sometimes I do it purposefully because it either calms me or just feels good generally makes me happy

I only make weird noises when some stupid idea or memory pops up in my head...then I humm or make other weird noises to drown out the idea or memory in my head because I have this feeling that people can hear my thoughts during those times...which is dumb because It only brings unwanted attention to myself....
But I only do it long enough to bury the original idea/memory with as many random thoughts as I possibly can to the point that I can no longer remember it...
I know it's not the same, but that's the reason why I make weird noises....

I do it in the mirror when admiring my appearance although I tend to deny it

So would anyone consider what I explained in my post to be forms of simming? Or just abnormal behavior? Most times I don't know I do them, but sometimes I do them purposefully because they make me happy.

Thanks guys so much for the replies... would you guys consider it forms of stimming?

A lot of times I grunt or make some sort of guttural noise. Because it's noisy where I work, nobody usually notices. When they do, they probably already know I'm not normal.