Feeling alien-like / inhuman?

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“To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment.” —Ralph Waldo Emerson

To be honest I wish I were an alien or not human. The fact that I belong to the same species of animals who do not live up to the literal meaning of their scientific name, i.e. homo sapien = "wise man", brings me shame and guilt. And whenever I say or do something stupid, or get sick or hurt, it reminds me I'm human, which makes it worse.

Definitely. At the age of four I was asking, "Why am I different from everyone else?" and "Why are people the way they are?" I couldn't believe that the other kids could really be so stupid and crazy as to think and act the way they did. There was no aspergers/autism diagnosis then, so I didn't get the answer till I was a middle-aged adult.

These days, I'm very good at dealing with NTs and "passing," but I still have the same feeling of extreme difference. I have two sons, one NT and one AS. I love them both, but with my NT son I feel there's always an invisible wall separating us--not emotionally but mentally. My AS son is much harder to deal with for me as a parent, but I understand him much better as a person.

I know how you feel, I have always felt like i don't belong here and that i'm not a true "human" and that i'm some kind of alien or other being living with a different species. i to just want to live my life without being changed but were stuck on this planet for now. although i have heard of NASA's program for people to volunteer to go live on mars so that might be the closest thing.

I can relate well to the feeling of superiority. Hopefully I've learned over the years that it's not quite that simple. I always used to think that Spock should have been captain of the ship, not Kirk. These days I think that NTs do have something of value that I don't have so much of, but I still get very tired of people who just don't seem to want to use the brains they were born with.

I feel neither alien nor subhuman. I do sometimes feel, however, that my life experience lags far behind my educational level and people will notice it. They may forever perceive me as younger than I actually am.

I sometimes wish I were a space alien or not human because of how so many humans treat each other.

I never felt human.Ever since the age of 3 I always felt I was born in the wrong body...the body of the wrong species. I felt like I was supposed to have been an animal of some kind.

I've felt like I'm not a human for as long as I can remember, but never like I'm superior or inferior in any way because of it, just that I'm completely different from humans. I've always thought of humans as "they," never "we," and never felt any sort of kinship with them. The details as to what, exactly, I thought I actually was would vary, but for the past few years, I've believed (and still do believe) that I have the soul of a dragon in the body of a human. This is in addition to being on the autism spectrum - not all my differences can be explained by one or the other, but together, maybe.

After hanging out with other people a lot, I felt like something else pretending to be human. I really tried to mimic everyone else to pretend them from seeing I'm not normal. It turned out it was more obvious than I thought - my friends, who I know for 15 years, had me figured out like third time we met.

I feel too human, and I actually don't like it. So human, that it's one of the reasons why I don't like people. It's also why I've been too forgiving or too harsh. Human is fickle. I don't like it. Yet I'd never deny it.

At the same time, I also feel alien. Being 'alien' make me feel more 'equal' yet different, than more/less.
Is it because I'm in a bubble? Or is it because I'm of outside of theirs', and I see the ends and edges of the bubble where the majority resides, as when they thought they only see it's vastness for most of their lives?

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