I've reached burnout point at my job. I can't handle the stress any longer, and it's making me suicidal. I'm thinking of quitting and applying for SSDI (I finally have five years' worth of work experience as of yesterday). I'd like to hear from those of you here in the US who are receiving SSI or SSDI, and how difficult it was to do, as well as how long the process took.
I did some research on the requirements to meet the definition of disability, and I think I would, given that I can't work at a "competitive pace" (and have performance evals to prove it), I have violent, self-injurious meltdowns in the office that have sent me to the ER once, and had the paramedics called twice. My processing speed is so slow that I struggle to follow instructions, cannot adapt to a fast-paced work environment, and struggle to remember what I'm supposed to be doing.
I can't work anywhere with noise, bright lights, strong smells or crowds, as the sensory overload would be almost immediate. I'm also 4'11" and weigh 90lbs, so moving heavy objects and reaching high shelves are also both impossible.
I have my diagnostic eval, as well as tests performed by my job coaches, occupational therapist, and an adaptive functioning expert which all corroborate my diagnosis and subsequent challenges. I'm on Medicaid, and have been approved for Long-Term-Care Medicaid to get support with cooking and cleaning, which I can't do independently.
I know none of you are experts, but I'd appreciate any input, advice or information you have on the subject. I'm nervous because I really need to get out of my current work environment, but I can't afford to unless I'm reasonably sure that I'll have some financial assistance available to me after I go.
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"Survival is insufficient" - Seven of Nine
Diagnosed with ASD level 1 on the 10th of April, 2014
Rediagnosed with ASD level 2 on the 4th of May, 2019
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