Attention is fine, but what's the point if I couldn't process or recall everything I notice?
Switching task I figured how. Yet I'm not always fast enough, and I don't always know when or when not to drop something off and move on.
Initiating tasks is easy, but I cannot do the same with knowing when or how appropriately to.
Planning? I'm not fast enough. And if I do plan, would it actually get it right?
Problem solving? That varies. From sheer luck, to hit-on intuition... To complete focus only to fail all of it.
Inhibition? No problem. But that doesn't mean knowing how much tension it requires to have the right kinds of inhibition.
Behavior management? This actually means hundreds of things in the mental list for the sake of 'appropriate behavior'. I only solved this far by knowing my culture, and still trying to know how regulation and timing is.
Short term and working memory? Oh, no, I'd keep falling the pieces I'm holding on into the oblivion. I can't always rely on lists and 'timing' is a gamble.
Verbal reasoning? Not this too. Doesn't matter how much 'practice' I had with this. Verbal is essentially my weakness. I'm inconsistently performing with this.
If I have enough processing, I can multitask well, I can take unfiltered sensory system as an advantage than a distraction, and do better than any average NTs. This is a rare occasion to me, when I'm actually being competent without struggling in a way that there's something's off.
The "EF" in my best state won't be a *skill*, but more of a *sensation* that gives off subtle bleeps, pulls, and sometimes alarms.
My conscious mind, with all it's skills and experience, nudges the 'automatically processed stuff' to whatever direction I want to go. The root of consequent 'sensory issues' became more of an advantage than anything else, focus isn't some misaimed and mishandled skill.
... Instead of full manual mental multitasking with inefficient outcome, and have to look for thousand items and lists at once and more than half of it are unprocessed and forgotten. Unless there will be time to burn or a mental maze to run into.
It's very damn frustrating to have that state as a rare occasion. So rare, its those very few best days of my adult life on a job.
It's something I already *have*, but muddled by something else. I don't know if it's just gears lacking oil or a misplaced gear -- perhaps both.
Yes, call it a hack or what. Except I didn't ate anything particular or done something specific -- but only to randomly wake up on such state.
But do remember that this is my own case I'm talking about, not autism as whole nor executive functioning itself.
This is just my own inner huntings, and I don't know how to help others with my knowledge except the attempts of explaining my own case.