Meltdowns
Which part do you want to know? It's about building a barrier between yourself and your emotions. Cutting yourself off them. Playing a role all the time not listening to what you feel.
As for the effects - I didn't know who I was anymore. Just felt anxiety, fear, my English is too poor to describe it, but it was enormous. Did not recognize myself in a mirror. Just wanted to die to end it. But my face had a convenient, nice expression and my voice and body language was perfectly normal. I didn't know what I felt, I knew there was a lot but had no idea a lot of what.
Got misdiagnosed with schizophrenia, which I often mention on this site. They put me on heavy and totally wrong medication which only made it worse and I was dumped as a loony.
I was lucky to escape this with a lot of help from a psych who really listened to me - unlike the others who made the diagnosis and couldn't admit they were wrong.
I've been having something similar - though not as bad. Extreme anxiety plus losing contact with my body. It's as if I'm outside myself and I am doing and saying all these things without having any idea how or why. Looking perfectly normal, but I'll say almost anything to survive the situation, never mind if it's appropriate.
I still recognise myself, so I don't think it's gotten as bad as what you had. I recently got out of a very stressful life situation, so I seem to be recovering, but I'm struggling with memory and EF issues. Does any of this seem familiar to you?
I went through the same thing you guys are describing. I was suppressing my meltdowns (which had been happening more often than normal because I was burnt out) and felt so distant from my own body and emotions for awhile. I didn't have anyone to help me out of it unfortunately, I did it on my own. Once I found out I was autistic I worked to stop repressing my meltdowns and let myself recover properly afterwards. It helped improve my mental health a lot! I feel like myself again
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Anyway, just curious cause people on here tend to mention both a lot, but the symptoms are either vague or varied.
Meltdowns are an outwards expression of overload, or 'fight' mode. The brain is trying to make the overwhelming things stop so it can catch up to what is happening. Meltdowns usually come with intense emotions and lots of people feel as if their actions are not their own during one.
Shutdowns are when the brain 'tunes out' what's happening to protect itself from more overwhelm, or goes in to 'flight' mode. Any kind of input usually becomes harder to process during a shutdown, as well as responding to this input.
I hope this helped.
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When you hear hoofbeats, think of horses, not zebras. - Dr. Theodore Woodward
It depends on the type of meltdown.
The typical meltdown would be a slow build up meltdown, with that I can have anywhere between 5-30 min or so of really knowing I could meltdown at any moment, and I may likely lose speech during this time, if I don't it will be difficult. Full recovery can take up to two days. The bulk of it should be dealt with by the next day. The worst period of recovery is the next few hours.
My "Trigger" , which are caused by a severe singular stimulant, most commonly smoke, I have no more than 5 seconds to respond, at best. The meltdowns themselves tend to be shorter, more damaging to myself and recovery tends to be done within 2 hours, so much quicker.
Shutdowns can last a few days to a few months and are weird as heck, recovery is situational and it can take time to regain lost skills.
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Diagnosed autistic level 2, ODD, anxiety, dyspraxic, essential tremors, depression (Doubted), CAPD, hyper mobility syndrome
Suspected; PTSD (Treated, as my counselor did notice), possible PCOS, PMDD, Learning disabilities (Sure of it, unknown what they are), possibly something wrong with immune system (Sick about as much as I'm not) Possible EDS- hyper mobility type (Will be getting tested, suggested by doctor) dysautonomia
Anyway, just curious cause people on here tend to mention both a lot, but the symptoms are either vague or varied.
A temper tantrum is a choice a child makes, where as a meltdown is the result of a combination of frustration, pain, anxiety and confusion. It is a flight or fight reaction that you have very little control over and that hurts very badly. You may hurt yourself or others, or just fall to the floor and start crying. The response is individual. It's like your brain overheating, and needing to release the pressure.
A shutdown is a freeze response that is prolonged, generally caused by not having the skills to handle a situation. It causes regression of skills that contentious until the situation changes. Some people go almost comatose.
For me it causes horrible mood swings, intense hyper focus sometimes to the point of forgetting to eat, my entire body going numb, general numbness of everything and a feeling of not quite real, along with significant regression of speech, motor skills, and memory patchiness.
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Diagnosed autistic level 2, ODD, anxiety, dyspraxic, essential tremors, depression (Doubted), CAPD, hyper mobility syndrome
Suspected; PTSD (Treated, as my counselor did notice), possible PCOS, PMDD, Learning disabilities (Sure of it, unknown what they are), possibly something wrong with immune system (Sick about as much as I'm not) Possible EDS- hyper mobility type (Will be getting tested, suggested by doctor) dysautonomia
I also suppressed meltdowns when I was a child in the 1970s and early 1980s. I know this because my Mom told me how I would often come home from school and explode to where I'd frequently need an "after school spanking" as she put it. I blocked out both the after school meltdowns and the apparent frequent spankings and I really don't remember either.
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My meltdowns tend to come on very fast, within seconds or minutes. Sometimes I can be aware of triggers building up for hours or days before one tiny thing makes me snap, other times, I'll be perfectly fine one second, and screaming and banging my head on the wall the next. I came very close to having a meltdown of the second type this evening. It was only my ability to get home and hide in my dark, quiet room under my weighted blanket until I calmed down that kept things from escalating.
My recovery typically takes many hours, often the rest of the day. I can't speak for hours after the event, and am highly susceptible to having another one triggered by something minor. I get very tired and usually just need to sleep.
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