I seem to be in the middle.

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I got similar scores to you on that test, little gator, and just got diagnosed on the spectrum. Even after getting diagnosed I find it difficult to come to terms with being somewhat "in the middle" as you put it. I really prefer things to be clear and I don't like ambiguity. Of course, I've had counselors tell me that having trouble with ambiguity is a very spectrum-y quality, so I'm trying to be understanding of this tendency in myself. I guess I'm just saying I understand the desire for clarity!

Perhaps a good way to think of it is in terms of expressing some, but not all, of the "typical" symptoms. And keep in mind that the "typical" symptoms were compiled using males almost exclusively. Scientists are just recently starting to compile a list of symptoms females typically express, and they are somewhat different.

Maybe look at your scores and see if where you scored more NT was for how you act, and more ASD for your thought processes and preferences? Females often learn much earlier in life to conform to social norms, so those with what used to be called Asperger's are more likely to smile and greet people, not stim in public, etc. than male counterparts. There is a female-specific screening tool now that has been the only "quiz" where I score very ASD. I think it is on the sticky topic one the general ASD forum.

What's wrong with being in the middle? It's great! You get the best of both worlds.
I am sensory sensitive enough to notice details before most other people, yet not such that I'm easily overwhelmed.
I'm truthful enough to be believed, yet not so truthful that I land in hot water often.
I am focused enough to get done what needs to be done, yet I don't focus so much that everything else falls by the wayside.
I think literally enough to make some great puns, yet not so literally that I get stumped by common sayings.
As for socialising... well, basic socialising works fine. But relationships are still an area which I don't handle very well.

I score nearly exactly in the middle of both the Aspie Quiz and the AQ test.

Disclaimer: I speak from personal experience only. The situation may not be quite so ideal for everyone who scores in the middle. Even in my case, standing in the middle comes with a price; my working memory is very poor.

i get sensory overhwelmed easily. I wopudol be nice ot wash some dishes wihtout cringing at the soudn of dishes clanking together,

Try high-fidelity earplugs. They don't muffle sounds like normal earplugs. They just make all the noises a bit quieter. You can buy them online, and some are clear and small, so hardly noticeable. They have helped me a lot when I need to go somewhere noisy, so they might help you when you need to do the dishes.

I think it's mostly because we aren't aware of others feeling empathy towards us and that they are judging us because of unsecure behaviour. But being to reserved and introverted to initiate any contacts is a nearly as big problem if it comes to me. Don't really know how to get over this until now.

what's wonrg the the middle? not much,e xcept that i would like osmethign definite.

what's wonrg the the middle? not much,e xcept that i would like osmethign definite.

If you are autistic many of the stories and experiences written by females with autism ought to resonate with you.

Hello, how nice to see that there is someone out there who had the exact same thought of starting a thread with this topic at this time. I wanted to talk about the same thing since I've done that same test and ended up with pretty much the same score as you did. If I recall correctly it was Neurodiverse 114 and NT 103 or something close to that. I also did the EQ test SplendidSnail posted a link to and scored 18p on it. I can't understand why my answers would seem that off to "normal". It really makes me wonder what is going on in the head of some people. But then there are questions that are aimed at your physical appearance - stuff like you can't really help like having multiple swirls. That's a crap question.

I'm still not convinced I'm on the spectrum, especially as I've met some people who actually has Asperger. These people are a completely different story - but then again there are the mild cases. I have posted earlier on about my father who would easily fall within the autism spectrum. I took notice of how extremely nervous he was at a birthday party (children's birthday party where he has to do his fatherly/grandpa duty). He just couldn't keep his hands from shaking and he tried to hide it by playing with a tissue. He has endless signs of aspergers. At work they used to call him the computer because of his ability to keep track of every batch of wood they stored in the warehouse. He guess he was quite happy driving around in that truck not having to deal with anyone but himself.
Just to add to the mix I also have a 100% autistic son who I just adore There's nothing better than watching the faces he makes as he's trying to understand the world around him

My sensory issues are sand and dry stones. Can't even think about it without doing some toe curling. I normally bring a bucket to the beach so that I can wet my feet when sitting in the sun chair. I've also been called a complete maniac by my own mother because of the melt downs I had as a kid. Could easily go on for 2-3 hours of constant anger. My voice even made the windows resonance as I screamed. Today I'm aware of the fact that I can't lash out like that - so I choose my moments more carefully. However, it happens from time to time that my anger comes out in the open

When I see my results I wonder if being brought up by an autistic parent might have influenced my way of being. A father who's constantly quiet and never invites anyone for social talks don't set the best example for his sons to learn how to be a "normal" person. I often feel like I have this split personality. In comfort zones, like at work (been at the same place for 18 years), I am a totally different person to the one I am outside those walls. I actually change the very moment I step out the door from where I work. For example I'm all of a sudden unable to say GOOD BYE to the person I've talked very openly to just 1 minute ago There's some kind of barrier.

You are not alone there in the middle Like Glflegolas says; it's perfect to be in the middle and being able to enjoy the best of both worlds.