Do you obsess about being autistic ?

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I guess it can be normal to obsess about it, i've done it, too. Its like you run around all your life doing things that got you in trouble, that made you and other people mad, that made you look like a brat and then you know, and you think about it and you wonder.

Sometimes it feels like I'm having obsessive thoughts about AS... mostly because those times are when I wish I could make it go away.

In the main, though, I have many things I obsess about needlessly, and AS is just one of them.

You know you are screwed when you obsess about something you almost definitely don't have.
My heart even races when I go on here...

When my daughter was first diagnosed, I cried every time I thought the word: ret*d. About a year later I could finally think it and not cry. I got so tired of thinking about my daughter's disability and prayed to God to give me something else to think about. The second and third year whenever I said the word: ret*d, I cried. A few years later I cried only on truly rough and destructive days. Now I can joke about my daughter and her ways. I'm obsessing about Asperger's now as I review my life and how it impacted everything without my awareness. The obsession will wane and just become background knowledge after I've thought about it enough.

I obsess, but I'm new to realizing- if not that I have it, that I have a LOT in common with those who do. I can't say what it will be like in a few years.

However, so far, it seems like a really useful way to better understand myself, or connect with those who do. . . and I don't think that's unhealthy.

Also. . . maybe it's just me, or the particular aspies I know, but it doesn't mean ret*d to me at all.

I think it's a shame people put that box around it. Yet one more example in history of people shaming what they don't understand. . .

I obsess about being autistic and everything else I've been diagnosed with.

I guess I should explain that my daughter was diagnosed as ret*d first. I was also told she had some autistic behaviour, but I had no idea what that meant and I fixated on the ret*d part. Now I say she has autism plus. plus retardation, bi-polar, OCD, seizure disorder, pain in the butt etc.
Actually, she is a very happy person now, living in her own home with a companion her own age who plans to make it a life-long job. Now that I'm not yelling at her for destroying my stuff we are getting along. She is also happy that we are no longer trying to make her work. She is a lady of leisure with her own hottub and TV and a schedule she sets.

Autism is my foremost perseveration, at the moment. It has been for about a year, since my youngest was diagnosed. I want to know everything about it so that I can be an expert as to how to help my boys the most. I came to this board to learn more to help my boys, and it was like I was reading about myself. That's when I figured out that I probably have AS. (before, I was taking the DSM too literally) So, I have been obsessing even before I knew I may have it. I'm trying to turn it into something positive. I'm starting a support group here locally for parents with ASD kids. Now I can actually use my knowledge for something.

See, that's the thing. If I took the DSM-IV EXACTLY TO THE T, then I might not be considered AS. But if I were to take it as a loose translation and compare notes with how everyone here on this message board acts/feels/thinks/ etc. then I do fit into the AS dx. That is what is so confusing to me.

I don't obsess about it. But I do spend alot of my time after my course finishes on WP
When I was first diagnosed, I didn't think about it too much as I didn't believe it. But then Mother gave me some information on AS, and after reading that, stupidly enough I cried, because I realised that for 15 years of my life, I felt different and never knew why. And then all of a sudden I did know.

I don't obsess over it now.
But if someone asks me why I do some of the "odd" things that I do, I will just say that I'm an Aspie. If they don't know what AS is, then I wont bother telling them.

oops, I think I went off the subject a little

Of course I do.

What's the alternative? Not being diagnosed, and still obsessed with wondering why I was so 'different', and not knowing? That was definitely worse.

I obsess over everything....

yeah...
I don't even know whether or not I have it and I obsess nonetheless.

JOIN THE CLUB! My incessant reading when I was younger, technical skills, and early development make me realize that AS explains everything.

I DO think about some things I don't have to, etc... take some things too literally, etc...

Still, I seem too normal. At times, you couldn't pick me out of a room. Apparently, we aren't alone.

I'm using the DSM-IV criteria.
I wouldn't advise self-diagnosing a medical label by comparing experiences with random people on message boards. And that goes for any 'condition'.