I feel like i am two different people

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I often feel like i am two different people, and neither is anything like the other, a total contradiction. Like i mean sometimes i say/do/think things that are really not very nice and i feel like i must be this really nasty person.I can be dark sometimes and i feel scared by it sometimes, i worry i could do something really awful. Then other times i'm the boy who cries over a dead puppy or wants to send his pocket money to charity and helping people and doing something good. I feel like i'm a jekyll and hyde, how can i be one person one minute and the next i'm someone completely different? Sometimes i don't know who i am, i don't know where i fit in and if people ask me to tell them about myself i can never say, i just don't know. i don't know if this is as Aspie thing? Anyone can relate? Sometimes i feel so lost and confused

you are lucky to only feel like two.

At times I feel like I have 10 different entities.

I'm like this. I feel like ppl would be shocked if they ever knew, since I spend my days looking reasonable, helpful and knowledgeable. Then taking the train home I think about how I want to beat senseless ppl who use their phones without ear buds. Or I tell ppl who block the door to get the $#^& out of the way. It's like I've spent all day being a phony. I do think sometimes that as much as I want a relationship, no man in his right mind could ever want to be with someone who loathes ppl as much as I do.

I feel like I'm both an NT and an Aspie, and all the time the traits of both are tangled up with each other. Like this clubbing business; I want to go clubbing...but at the same time I don't. It's not as easy as "if you want to go clubbing then go clubbing". My NT self is telling me that I have to go clubbing because it's important to give into peer pressure, but my Aspie self is telling me to never go clubbing because it is stupid. It's like my Aspie side is making me feel guilty for not giving into peer pressure, but my NT side is stopping me from enjoying solitary life.

Multiple personality disorders

Maybe this?

It might not be so drastic. "Normal" people often feel like they have "contradictory selves."

There have been many writers who have thought they were "two people."

In the 18th century, it was almost conventional to have a battle between the "head" and the "heart." This was expressed, at times, as a battle between two people within one person.

I can sort've relate to the OP, in that sometimes my emotions gets a bit out of control. But the issues are largely centered around my inability to regulate my own feelings. That's a major project for my therapy, but it's a beast I think I can at least get on a strong leash, if I can't actually slay it.

Did i write this post?

Not it sure it I would go around telling people they have DID but I can 100% relate to this