My service dog (a standard poodle named Merlin) does a good job of keeping me calmer and avoiding shutdowns and meltdowns (they still occasionally happen, but nowhere near as often as before I got him). My dad used to be very into keeping freshwater fish, and he let me and my brother each have a fishtank of our own. I love watching the rippling motion of the bottom fin on knife fish (I had a brown knife fish for a while - you have to be careful when getting them, because there are two kinds, one with a dorsal fin and one without, and the one that has the dorsal fin gets huge, while the one without stays a reasonable size for a standard home aquarium). I'm also a fan of eels and other eel- shaped fish. I had a peacock eel, but I didn't see much of it beyond its nose sticking up because they like to bury themselves in sand. I also like geophagus and had a couple of those. It's fun to watch them grab mouthfuls of sand and then filter it out through their gills. I had some kind of African cichlid, don't remember which, for a while, too. I think I had about six of them and was hoping they would breed because they are mouth brooders and I wanted to watch all the babies come pouring out of mama's mouth when she decided the coast was clear. My first fish were firemouth cichlids, but they didn't survive the move from New York to Kansas (my dad did have some that made it, though, if I remember correctly). Also had rainbow cichlids for quite a while, and probably several other species that I don't remember right now. However, I always feel sad when I see all the bettas in tiny containers because it's not much space and they don't look very happy in there. I want to get a nice big fishtank and put some bettas in it so they have plenty of space. Can't really put other fish in with them, though, because most will nibble at the betta's fins. Any time I'm somewhere that has an aquarium like the vet's office where I take my dog or a local Chinese restaurant that has two, I usually spend the whole time watching the fish. But at pet stores, I look to see what fish they have but also look at the other animals (particularly the reptiles).
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Yet in my new wildness and freedom I almost welcome the bitterness of alienage. For although nepenthe has calmed me, I know always that I am an outsider; a stranger in this century and among those who are still men.
-H. P. Lovecraft, "The Outsider"