Nothing ever seems to get better...

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I don't see the point to things anymore. Honestly, I'm only setting myself up for failure, no matter how hard I try. Being single for over a year hasn't been easy for me. Without that special someone in my life, I'm nobody. Everything used to be so wonderful when I had somebody. Unfortunately, she ended up breaking my heart, which left an emotional wound that never seems to heal. What's more, I have to go about my everyday life, witnessing the happiness of others (which I can never have). Most of those other guys who have a girlfriend, usually consist of arrogant as*holes, who don't even deserve them in the first place. Ironically, one of my so-called "friends" perfectly fits the category, though he used to be one of my best friends. I'm always the one who's left out, unable to find "the one" I've been patiently waiting for. Despite how constructive I try to be with my life, my efforts only prove meaningless. Thinking positively doesn't contribute much, either.

I wish women could see the good qualities that I possess. I'm attractive, outgoing, and thoughtful towards others' feelings. Unlike other guys, I do NOT go around acting like some rude, illogical dickhead. I'm not perfect, but I also know that I'm one of the nicer guys out there. Why can't women see any of these qualities? Sometimes, I cannot help but wonder what the point is in playing "Mr. Nice Guy". Sure, I care about others, but what do I get back in return? Nothing but a crock of s**t every time. I wish I could find the right girl who I love me for who I am, and NOT just because of my body. Seems that may never happen. There've been countless nights, where I've cried myself to sleep over the fact that I'm alone in this world. My faith and motivation are now completely lost and I cannot see any sign of hope left.

It's hard, really. The sad thing is that most people ( male and female) will go for the a**holes first until they finally get to the nice people, and by then the nice people are jaded or have given up and have settled with other a**holes ( creating a total void of nice single people).
I had found quite a few a**holes ( actually, they seemed to find me--- i was a magnet for them) and wasted my 20's on them being miserable. Finally, I got with my current ( hopefully forever) BF. Ironically, he'd spent the last few years before me with a**hole women who ended up hurting him, too.
You may have a long road ahead of you--- it may take years to locate that special someone. But the thing you need to do now is don't give up. It isn't easy, sometimes you won't see the point of anything. But when it happens, it will lessen the pain of the past and make for a better future.
I used to think i wasted over 10 years on these a**holes--- now I prefer to think that i was just practicing for the good one. I feel I also appreciate my current BF better because i know what the bad ones are like.
Hang in there, others feel similar thoughts like you've expressed.

De ja vu. I live that life except I'm probably a you, 3 years later.

Man, no advice would help me when I felt like you. Even now that feeling of hopelessness hasn't completely gone away. General interests and love no longer seem interesting even though you wish you could have it. I got really random and did anything to run away from my life and cried myself to sleep. Yeah, I so understand your pain VERY well it almost makes me want to run away from everything. If I wasn't religous I would've lost myself.

I don't know what to tell you but being stubborn, being who you are, screwing EVERYTHING else is the most important thing to you at this moment. Don't lie to yourself but remember who you are and what this world is. What it 'really' is. Keep your pride. There are people out there who aren't so careless...I for one, am one who is looking out for your well being right now. You speaking from how you feel deep inside, that already makes us better people than those b|_|ttholes who only care about themselves.

Just forget the world. You ARE alone but that's not always a bad thing. It's what 'god' or destiny chose for you. You just have to stand up and be strong/smarter than the world and change it for what you want. What makes you happy and agrees with who you are. Go take a walk, do something different, take a long shower, talk to some random person off the street, go in some church, and think about that.

A good lyric from a song i like is
" I have crawled so far sideways i recognize dim traces of creation"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K_kxJnHoGGs

I kind of feel like that because i`m now 24 achieved virtually nothing. OK so im stable and working but still the loner that cant do anything that i want because of this brick wall called Aspergers and yet its only when i stop and look back that i think well ok ive done a few crazy things so at least thats one aspect that cant be taken a way from me.....

Alex uk

I take it you're talking about life!

I read through all the posts in this thread and after a while I stopped counting how many times I said to myself 'yep, that was me'. Trust me here, it does get better with time. Eventually you will realize how your mind works and eventually you will be able to work with your AS instead of working against it. Most important, there are people out there who understand the issues involved with AS and are willing to accept you the way you are.

There is however a small amount of bad news. The world does not owe you an easy life and each time you feel something it doesn't have to tickle. There are lots of AS sufferers on the WP board who seem to be just sitting around waiting for someone like me to come along with the magic bullet which will cure them of AS and make everything hunky dory. It ain't going to happen.

So, how many AS sufferers on this board are willing to pull themselves up by their own bootstraps and actually DO something about being an AS sufferer instead of talking about it?

Ed Almos