Dox47 wrote:
Funny note, I think in retrospect that a lot of my own difficulties were overlooked when I was younger because of the way my intellect manifested from a very young age, I read constantly and remembered everything and had this huge vocabulary, and together this had a way of dazzling adults into ignoring what in hindsight should have been seen as warning signs. When I was eventually diagnosed, every single person who knew me jumped right on the "little professor syndrome" description, as it was written as if based on personal observation of me as a child.
My ADHD was overlooked until adulthood because of this. I skated through grade school because I knew all of it already. It became a problem in 8th grade when I was put on medication for anxiety and depression, which put me to sleep, and when first faced with a subject I didn't immediately understand, I couldn't cope with it and shut down. I assumed that just because I didn't immediately grasp it, that I could never do it. I also overthought everything. When I started algebra 1, I got hung up on every little thing because, while following the rules and getting the answers right was easy, I was trying to understand why these concepts existed in the first place and trying to make sense of that. When I got into geometry and had to learn proofs, I got hung up on the difference between sine, cosine and tangent, and why exactly we were applying them and what they meant or what their utility was, when all I had to do was solve the problems.
I recently went back and revisited the things that had confused me so much, and realized just how easy they were. I realized I had been overthinking it for years.
Combined with my ADHD, which is in the 97th percentile, I couldn't handle the courseload or really even keep track of it. It was undiagnosed until 2 years ago, so my complete lack of ability to follow a routine, keep a planner or follow reminders that I set resulted in a lot of problems, including not being able to sit down and actually complete assignments or even remember when a paper worth 40% of my grade is due. The severe PTSD didn't help, either.