Or, a “lack there of”, rather.
I never thought I could be autistic until I specifically looked into symptoms in people AFAB. I then realized I’ve had a s**t ton of symptoms my entire life and I relate to even some of the most specific experiences people have had.
I discussed the idea of an autism diagnosis with my therapist and he’s very affirming of my symptoms. He thinks it’s much more likely I have ASD than BPD (I’m still convinced I have undiagnosed BPD though) and said he’d be happy to make a referral.
I just got back from seeing my psychiatrist who’s the complete opposite. Just as I suspected he’d do, he blamed all my symptoms on my GAD and CPTSD. He wasn’t directly rude about it, but basically said I’m too “socially warm/nice and emotionally mature” to be autistic. It felt very outdated and ableist, so I told him I still want to go ahead with an assessment because there’s so much misinformation and misconceptions about ASD, especially in AFAB.
Am I being rude for this, or questioning my psychiatrist who’s been working over 30 years? I don’t know what to make of my therapist saying one thing and my psychiatrist the complete opposite.
I really associate with the symptoms and just want an unbiased opinion. I’m not sure what to do anymore and it’s extremely stressful.
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This is the last time I go to McDonkies! They put fricking ghost in burger! I will now go see Kentucky Fried Man!