mmaestro wrote:
I didn't think I did, then I was thinking one day, and realised that on a few occasions, I had. I shut down, internalise, and I run to somewhere quiet and isolated. It's not obvious. I think I'd kind of blanked them from my memory, because they weren't explosions, they weren't obvious to anyone (except my wife - she knew, probably before I did, she's good like that).
Oh, I've done that a few times. I didn't recognize it as a melt-down... I didn't blow up... I just ran away... I couldn't take people talking anymore.
Strangely they both happened around family... one time my Mom and Sister were fighting... and I just couldn't stand it. I ran upstairs... I couldn't take all the subtle jabs at each other and terrible emotions festering.
Same thing happened recently at a hospital with my Mom and Grandpa. My Mom does not care for her father much. They get into bickering matches... actually my whole family kind of disrespects my grandfather... I find it very sad.
Anyways... my Mom was really bickering with my Grandpa... over the stupidest things. I said out loud... "one more stupid pointless argument and I'm out of there." Not 3 mins later, they start going on about something... I walk right out of the room.
I just could not stand to be in there with all that negative emotion flying around... and disregard for understanding of others.
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Wonder what it feels like to be in love?
How would you describe it, like a push or shove?
Guess I could pretend that this is all I need
Wanting more than what I have might appear as greed.