Aseld wrote:
Yes. I hate it so much. I go through a few stages when stressed, in ascending order of stress level:
Talking normally
Retreating to formality, using the rules of language to my advantage
Beginning to become incoherent, not being able to find the words I want
Beginning to feel like retreating, if for whatever reason I can't or it's important that I don't, I become even more incoherent and start swearing, mainly at myself for not being able to find the words I want
Inability to make myself understood - I really don't want to find out what happens if I'm in this state and can't go to my room. Text communication only.
Anyone also keep "escape plans"? I try and keep my social stress levels down by knowing my exits. ie. sitting in the back corner closes to a door in a classroom or making sure I have private transportation such as a car or a bike.
Also, has anyone gotten to the point where they have lost their memory? It has only happened once or twice but I am terrified it will happen again: A social situation hits a level of stress where I completely blank out. Sometimes it switches into auto-pilot where I don't have control over what I am doing but my body is reacting to get me out of the situation and sometimes my mind and body shut down completely and I feel like a stunned game-character like in
existenz.
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