I just realized that I have alexithymia!

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I'm so excited!! After a lifetime of difficulties, multiple (mis)diagnoses, and years of social media and personal journaling, I just realized that I have no idea what I am feeling and why ALL THE TIME!! This is sooooo awesome to recognize! So many things are starting to make sense. Wowwwwwww.

Anyone else been through this?

Congrats! I'm also alexithymic, I have no idea what I'm feeling most of the time Facts are my friends, emotions are scary.

Congratulations on your step in the journey of self discovery.

Thanks guys! I figured it out thanks to this website. I was doing my usual essay writing as a response to a simple question that I would then try to summarize when it clicked in my head that I have no idea how I am feeling. So thank you to the site for the setup and opportunity to find out on my own which is compatible with PDA Super accommodating



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I didn't realize I had it until last year when I started seeing a therapist. She would ask me "how do you feel?" or "how does that make you feel? I kept feeling like a failure or that i was letting her down by not being able to answer the question with nothing but " I don't know" or "I'm not sure." Sometimes I am able to say how it kind of makes me feel, but it's really a jumbled mess.

I'm dealing with the complete opposite.

To a point that I wish I have alexithymia instead.
There are barely any guides for autistics with interoceptive hypersensitivities, and next to nothing beyond grounding techniques.

Like, I do not need more "awareness" (more like I'm forced to feel everything in my body, every subtle thought, every feeling), I need less or at least more filter from it.

And I'm sick of keep talking and thinking about it.


When I look for sensory interoception guides for autism, it's almost always about alexithymia and interoceptive hyposensitivity.


Oh, sure, lack of alexithymia usually means "emotional matters" are no brainer.
But it doesn't reflect the same with "social matters".

Nor do awareness implies regulation -- that never happened to me unless I have twice the memory cores I have in my processing.


I'm "very expressive" and "reactive" -- but I don't want to. I'd rather have a blank poker face.


Had experienced something similar to alexithymia.
And it was everything I imagined it to be.
Though, it's temporary.

I think I can afford to have one in later life, seeing that I already knew too much of my internal patterns.

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I probably have to a degree. I view it as part of my autism.

I figured it out right after I received my Autism diagnosis because while I was learning a lot of things about Autism and that popped up on most Autism traits lists.

diagnosis gave every event of my past new perspectives, it shook up everything I thought, everything I believed , everything I thought I knew and understood. Earthquake and whirlwind of emotions for about 3 years, but when the dust settled so much finally made sense, I had the answer to almost every single painful "why" of my life. Being OLD(age 68) when I got diagnosis, I had a lifetime of stuff to sort. Now 5 years later and things are smoothing out, I am finding peace and healing and comfort after a lifetime of shame, blame and self hatred. It was such a relief to learn everything was not after all "all my fault" but my neurology at work behind the scenes. Nobody knew.

I have that sometimes as well. There are situations where I should have a strong emotional response but no, nothing.

I have wondered if my son who is 19 and on the spectrum has this. He doesn't cry when someone passes away, he never complains about being too warm or too cold or hungry or sad or nervous. He is rather silly alot of the time though. I have had a suspicion about alexithymia but never knew for sure. What are some methods that are useful to deal with it, or is it just something to accept......