Daedelus1138 wrote:
I have meditation experience off and on for several years at different times. Currently I've been meditating consistently for a month and noticed alot of improvements. I do about 20-30 minutes a day, several sessions of just sitting and paying attention to breathing. I have undergone intense stress and grief in my life and was having meltdowns too often, but now they are mostly gone. Many of my ASD symptoms have diminished and my sense of empathy has been restorted somewhat. I meditated years ago as a Buddhist but I got distracted on a religious quest that ultimately did not lead to a great place (I reverted to my childhood Christian faith and tried to join the Orthodox church, which didn't work out). I think I will go back to meditation now, and wheather it has religious conotations or not, I will be "religious" about meditating, it does work. I'd like to see more research into meditation and Autism if possible, I wonder why there's not more talk about it.
For me years ago when I started, a big obstacle in meditation was judgementalism, and this time it was too, but I delt with it faster than in the past. Meditations focused on replacing negative thoughts and feelings with positive feelings (Metta-bhavana or "Lovingkindness" meditation, etc), seem like they were needed for me too. If your mind is so full of harsh thought patterns and feelings, it can make just sitting very difficult, because the tendency then is to be harsh on yourself when your mind wanders, etc.
Some institutional aspects of meditation schools do worry me. Often you are told to meditate on an image of the organisations guru, other times like in buddhism, you are only allowed to eat once a day. Personally, I dont prostrate before men or images of gods, and firmly believe humans to be grazers requiring small amounts of food throughout the day, rather than 1 large meal.
Also the prevalence of psychopaths preying on vulnerable others is high enough to be a problem. My meditating neighbour is a huge bully! The sort of person you do not want to let in your head. And she is a therapist!!