Need advice from from fellow aspies...

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Sorry but this is going to sound crazy but I need help.. I am in between a rock and a hard place with an elephant about to sit on all of it...

Ok, where do I start? I am 40 years old... and until a couple years ago when my life fell apart completely I finally realized I was an undiagnosed aspie. Since learning about asperger's I have realized how it accounts for all the craziness I didn't understand about myself and my life.

For the past several years I have been living with my mom.. who is crazy and a control freak. Because of my asperger's i fell through the education system and never found my calling in life and would drift around from job to job always looking for something special I knew I was supposed to do. Sculpting has always been something I was decent at but it is not something easy to learn and it's expensive and time consuming.

Living with mom I was finally in a position where I had time but not much money or resources. And then out of the blue something hit that sidetracked me from that... the past few years I have been studying some very strange subject matter... you can read about it here...

http://www.wrongplanet.net/postt214447.html

It sounds crazy but I have discovered something that will change the world.. I am in the process of trying to document it myself but it is not easy.. especially being an aspie and always hating writing. I just had to build msyelf a PC to do the graphic work for a book and am teaching myself how to illustrate it.. I have some drawing ability but I am out of practice. This story is also incredibly complex and a minefield legally.

But the issue I have now is that I have a month or 2 to get my act together and make some money... if I don't my mom is retiring and moving out across ountry. Now here is the issue... my mom is a controlling b***h.. and she is forcing me to move against my will. She has said I don't have a choice in the matter. Now you have to know the back story to this to understand it fully but she was the one that moved me here to this state when I was young.. away from all my family and with that and my asperger syndrome I never got to know any of my family... and met as*holes for friends when I was growing up so I really have no one to turn to.

So now I either need to finish a portion of this story to sell as a book or I need to find some kind of job I can do to survive....

But the problem is I can't function in any kind of job. I wish I could get some kind of help to do this project but no one takes me seriously because of my asperger's and no history to show that what I have discovered is for real...

To complicate things I have 2 cats who I have to think about too.. they are like my kids and getting older and would die if I wasn't around. I don't want to make them move across country following my crazy mom either. I am worried they may not even make the trip physically either.

This probably won't make any sense to anyone but I am giving it a shot here..

What did you discover?

I can't give that information out here.. it's complex why but when I put the info out it has to be in a way that will make a big impact. It sounds crazy but if I don't people could prevent this from getting heard. So a slow leak would be very bad.. I need to make a big splash all at once.

I tried giving this info to someone in a position to make it public but no one would let me get my foot in the door.. it;s a long story to make people understand the importance of this. This is why I am forced to document it in a interesting way to get people's attention.

But to me this is the most important thing I have seen in my entire life... it's difficult to explain that to people without giving them the full story.. but that is the honest truth.

My mom believes a lot of this because I have told her all about it.. she is in denial about some aspects because of the incredible nature of it, but I think she is afraid of me putting this info out because of the possible repercussions.

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Not sure what that means???

Was my description completely confusing or contradictory? Please let me know.. as an undiagnosed aspie I don't know when I am sounding weird or crazy or why...

Maybe there is someone on this list that would be approachable:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_pe ... _disorders

...if you ignore the fact that not all of them are proven to have Asperger's and they seem to have included murderers and terrorists on the list as well just to make the general public sustain their erroneous opinions about Aspies.

This one in particular, as an autism activitist could maybe help: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jim_Sinclair_(activist)

You may have to work at a menial job while you work on your project. These things are not mutually exclusive. I've known some PhDs who've worked as janitors. You just need something to keep a roof over your head and your kitties fed.

I'm curious as to your discovery, but without more information I can't suggest any resources.

Forget about the game with your mother, you can't win it. (I live with my Mom too) Just focus on what is the best move for you.
I know what you mean about those jobs: I've been looking for work and I ended up at Walmart putting out the magazines. Well I lasted for 2 weeks (which I consider a personal victory.) It wasn't the work load (which was heavy) it was my boss. She was absolutely horrible. I almost walked off the job twice (my version of punching,) but I managed to give civilized notice. Disability is a good resource. I'm on it, so I don't have to panic financially. But I'm finding it very difficult to find another job.
I'm thinking of going back to school . . . I have no skills which make me employable for anything other than minimum wage jobs. And so far no earth shattering ideas.

Same question that I posted on the other thread.

Does this, by any chance, have anything to do with UFO's?