I can't stand hearing.

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I want to destroy my ear drums. Every sound is too loud. Cars on the dual carriageway. Kids shouting and screaming outside all day. Dogs barking. The TV downstairs. People running up and down the stairs. Doors creaking. Etc.

I CANNOT COPE. I had to take clonazepam because I had a meltdown and nearly ruptured a muscle from punching myself and anything else.

I am supposed to take 20mg olanzapine at night but I end up not taking it and then taking 10mg n the morning, sleeping during the day and staying up all night.

I don't know what to do.

I can't study in libraries as I can't study with other people in the room.

I actually want to make myself deaf. It's that bad.

If you destroyed your hearing and became deaf, you would regret it instantly. Speaking from my own experiences, having deafness and an ASD is extremely difficult. You become so reliant upon people around you, and you need so much support from those around you. Having deafness has only made me feel more vulnerable and has taken a toll upon my confidence too.

Don't do it to yourself. You'll only cause more pain for yourself.

I understand. I won't make myself deaf then. I just want some quietness / silence.

I cannot carry on self harming, having meltdown after meltdown, and switching my circadian rhythm.

I don't know what to do.

You'll have to experiment to find what works best for you since each individual is different.

I often wear tightly sealed ear plugs or I wear headphones with my favorite soothing classical or ambient background playing.

I want to destroy my ear drums.

You might want to experiment with ear plugs. One tip is to use a Q-tip with a little mineral oil to soften the sealing plastic so that it is not so irritating to the ear.

Thanks for the advice. I'll put my ear defenders on and research buying ear plugs online. I think there's a website someone once suggested to me where I can order them.

I'm also getting overloaded with smell, sight, touch and taste.

I have been wearing the same tracksuits for a while now as there the only thing I don't cry in.

I've been wearing sunglasses at home and everywhere

I tried to eat a snack but the taste made me want to vomit.

The smell of cooking from downstairs is making me nauseous.

I might go and curl up inside a duvet around me with ear defenders on and sensory deprive myself for a bit.

warning on ear plugs. DO NOT use the silicon ones like this

http://www.macksearplugs.com/details/no ... pair-value

I had an incident where a piece of the silicon got so deep in my ear canal I had to go to the doctor to get it removed

Thank you for telling me this. I'll avoid them.

steel maiden,
sht sleeping pattern and stressors make sensory issues worse,the unsuitable living arrangement and the attitudes from staff coud be subconciously adding to it,try and work on developing ways around those if at all possible,if anything to do with university coud be causing it;are there any accomodations they can give?
the severe sensory issues of mine go absolutely mental when sleep is all over the place and when am stressed,have always noticed that with members on here as well.

Ask your school if as an accommodation you may use one of the sound insulated music practice rooms to study.

Makes sense. Also olanzapine tends to make me mellow and less susceptible to meltdowns so I'm guessing taking it at 4am is a stupid idea.

I will try and sleep sensibly but it is insanely noisy in this area. I live next to a dual carriageway and 2 minutes away from an accident and emergency centre with plenty of sirens. Also kids play on the small green in front of my house at every possible opportunity. And when they play they scream and shout. The residents here appear to like blasting the TV and one of them is very loud on the phone.

Night time is like a benzodiazepine for me.

I should have moved out ages ago but the council refused to agree to it and were making things difficult.

I'm getting assessed by the National Autistic Society on the 12th of May for support so I'll mention it to them.

The music rooms are a great idea. I used to study in those when I was at school and I'm sure the uni have the same.

I'm going to call my care coordinator when it gets to 9am. I need to sort this out.

I'm exactly the same way. I hate noise from everything. The fridge makes noise. The computer makes noise. It drives me crazy. Knowing ASL and socializing with the Deaf community makes it all the more tempting, but I realize it's a crazy thing to do.

Noise is awful. I want an "off" switch on my ears.

Me too. I've sometimes felt like I wanted to be deaf too, just to get some peace and quiet, but I know it would hurt way too much to do it, plus it would make life really hard, plus I wouldn't be able to listen to my music any more. I've been where you are though, and it sucks big time. KoR is right when she says sleep deprivation makes sensory issues worse; mine always get really bad in the middle of the semester when I'm going to bed too late and waking up too early.

I have to agree sleep (or lack thereof) makes it all the worse. I positively can't stand noises whatever the source. I will be working in my workshop in the basement and the heating/air conditioning kicks on. Then something always starts vibrating or shaking. I go around and find it and silence it. Next time the darn thing comes on another buzz or rattle shows up. Between the neighbours, road traffic, people mowing lawns, parties, etc it is driving me crazy at times.

I can cope if I have been sleeping properly. But I go thru a cycle where I sleep well for maybe 3 or 4 weeks. Then I will have 3 or 4 weeks where I can't sleep at night no matter what I take medicinally, etc. I usually end up falling to sleep as the sun is rising. When I am in that part of the sleep(less) cycle, is where noises nearly drive me mad. I have had 3 nights of good sleep now and I am coming back around. The noises still annoy me, but are tolerable. I know it is only a matter of time before my sleep is again disturbed. I NEVER had problems sleeping up until a year or so ago. Now it seems to be getting worse. I wonder if it is due to the ASD or my age or? Doc has had me change my cymbalta to mornings and take melatonin at night. And that helped for awhile, now I am back at this crazy cycle again.

Noises are bad enough but when proper sleep is lacking, it makes it so much worse.

I have heard and read that the loss of one sense leads to the heightening of the others, that would defeat the purpose of destroying your eardrums to decrease sensory overload I think.