Ohh,,,wrote a response and it got wiped away. Here i go again...
I have two special interests, X and Y. Y was present at age 3 onwards, X was present since I was a baby, which my mother used as a calming device. I later became proficient at both X and Y.
I have been called a genius in X by some experts who have met me and I am regularly called gifted in X. I am also called gifted in Y but that to me is a more common skill so I don't appreciate it quite as much in myself.
For years I tried to make a career of X, but it is commonly known to be luck of the draw whether one does this with regards to this particular interest. The make or break factor is often social skills, not competence or quality of work, so you can see where my problem is, because I can and do spend significant time honing my craft in X but cannot be bothered of going out kissing ass, also known as networking.
So some years back I reasoned that as my special interest Y is more marketable, I should make a career out of that. Then I could either hire help in the form of people kissing as on my behalf and helping me become successful at X, or alternatively I would have financial security and be able to engage in X without the pressure of ever being successful at it.
I threw myself into Y, made it my new primary special interest, and neglected X for a good few years. With hyperfocus, I achieved in a few years at Y what apparently takes most people 10 years. I am now on a successful career track with Y. Luckily am able to take it a bit more easy with Y now and spend time on X, my truest interest if you like, instead. But it wasn't plain sailing - 6 months ago I had what I now know to have been an autistic shutdown, whereby I simply could not engage with Y anymore. I have continued to do so using very moderate and occasional energy, which thankfully works at the moment because my years of hyperfocus in Y have given me such a huge leg up with regards to what is known as 'the competition'.
I am hoping to fully re-engage with X in 2015, because I cannot go on neglecting my true special interest. I am also considering perhaps entirely giving up Y if it harms in any way my engagement with X. X is what I have always lived for; I love Y too but not in the same way. X consumed the whole of me and refreshes the whole of me; Y is a bit more superficial than that. I would rather have X be my full time career and Y my occasional sidekick activity, but I need to see how 'the market responds'.
(Don't you just hate business talk!)
On the note, I have personally noticed my mental health depends on how much I am able to engage with my special interests -- especially X, but also Y. I do wonder whether others feel the same way? That a lot of the autistic depression is caused by the environment not being supportive enough of your special interest and you making it your full time occupation? I am not stupid enough to just blame the environment of course; I do understand the laws of economics are at play; and I am not entitled to any career whatsoever, no matter how competent I am in it, if I am not able to demonstrate that competence to a paying target market. Even when that demonstration means kissing ass.
Happy Christmas y'all!
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Your neurodiverse (Aspie) score: 163 of 200
Your neurotypical score: 61 of 200
You are very likely neurodiverse (Aspie)