Do/Did you ever hate yourself because you're autistic?

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I used to have some pretty bad self-esteem issues as a result of stigma and bullying for being "different." I have known that I am autistic since I was 10 years old. I must have watched too many Autism Speaks videos without being warned of the hateful messages behind them. I probably learned to hate myself this way and, therefore, wanted to be cured. Later on, as I started looking up autistic people and their opinions, I learned to embrace and love my autistic traits.

I don't hate myself because of it, because I know it's not my fault I have it. That's the biggest reason. You are either born with it, or possibly, from an accident you've had during childhood, etc. None of the causes of autism is the fault of the person having it.
I am accepting myself, and glad many other people accept me as I am, and they often don't even pay attention or make a big deal out of the whole thing.
Obviously, being different is a disadvantage, but it also makes you special.
So, no. I dont hate myself. I think we're all special because of what we might have.

In short, many times. It's sometimes hard for me to get the head around that fact.

It is known that autistic people are considerably more likely to commit suicide than NT people. I somehow think that hating oneself because of autism and suicide may be connected, but I am not trying to draw conclusions here.

I had self-loathing issues in the past due to having AS. I feel like it is responsible for the bad things that happen in my life.

I don't hate myself so much now, but I still hate my AS. But I think going on WP every day has actually helped me to learn to deal with it, despite some of the negatives this site causes sometimes (no offense). But I'd still say this site has done me good with coming to terms with myself.

I'd rather hate myself for having to deal with sinusitis on daily basis, than disliking myself for being autistic and having to deal with the world.

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To a degree I suppose. Or perhaps mildly annoyed. More at the autism itself really. But no one and nothing is perfect, so in the long run it's nbd.

There was a time I hated myself because I felt I couldn't say anything right.
I wasn't diagnosed at the time, so no.

I do have the occasional moments of self-loathing because of my AS, but thankfully they're very rare. For the most part, it doesn't affect my life to a significant degree, with the only minor exception of my sub-par social skills.

I did hate myself but then I realized that I am special there is nothing wrong with me the people in my life now made me realize that

im mad because i know that no one in my family/extended family has ever had it maybe my great great grandfather might've had it at some point and passed it down only to present itself at the most unfortunate time, or some higher power is somehow responsible (no im not talking about god), makes me question whether or not my parents drunk alcohol or did drugs during their pregnancy that might have spurred something to happen, why the right side of my brain is somewhat missing most of its neurological pathways resulting in many deficiencies in my mental state.

I absolutely hate myself without a doubt!

No, I avoided hating myself including my asd. I get frustrated with parts of it some time, but not hate it.

I had negative thoughts about myself because I did not know I was autistic and thus did not know why things that were seemingly easy for everybody else was difficult or impossible for me.