How Much Of A Hermit Are You?

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I have discovered that over the years of failed friendships and a thirteen year marriage going down the drain that I have very little hope in retaining any friendships really at all. I would love to have friends that truly love me and care about me, but I have found as I have gotten older I don't let people in as willing as I did when I was younger. I find my bitterness is hard to let go of also, and I'm quicker to get offended of others who are critical of my behaviors. I do have a pretty decent job running a department in an electronics manufacturing plan, and get plenty of social time with the folks that work for me. I come home and play world of warcraft in my free time, but even friends that I make on the game I try not to let in too far since even in an MMORPG folks become critical of my Aspie behavior. I'm thinking of just cutting myself off from the game too since even there I get my feelings hurt easily.

I can be a hermit at times. I go to work. Every once in a while I stay at home on the weekends and literally won't leave my apartment until I have to go to work the following Monday. Most of the time I go out for a drive or walk around a mall (I like people watching). Sometimes I go to a movie or a concert. I eat out at restaurants occassionally, particularly if I'm craving a particular type of food. I don't have any friends here. The only friend I have lives a few hundred miles away so I don't get to see her very often. Outside of work my only human contact is usually with some kind of cashier or waitstaff.

I've pretty much given up on trying to make friends. If someone approaches me, I might recipropcate, but I'm very wary because I've been hurt too many times by people who said they were my friends and cared about me, only to drop me for no apparent reason.

I once told my friend that sometimes I get really miserable from loneliness, but have no real desire to meet new people. So, basically, I'm screwed.