What do you hate the most about having autism/aspergers ?

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I hate not being able to connect with other people and always feeling that distance in a relationship, even with my Mother or siblings.

Oh goodness, yes. I feel that way.

I think even NTs must feel 'the distance' at times; I think it's part of the human condition, but I'm always aware of it.

I hated growing up undiagnosed and labeled as "stubborn and defiant" with that so called psychologist telling my parents that I was acting out to to seek attention" as a child.

I hate how hard it is to make meaningful relationships and not having any kind of support.

i missed this question when i replied.

the stereotype of being rude. plenty of people do rude things, often. NTs must have better timing or act in ways that correlate with a consensus of when it's ok to be rude. we do it by accident and we're branded rude.

The fact that I want to socialise, and want to go to noisy hectic bars, and want to hang out in a big group all night, in tarty clothes - but can't. The AS stops me. It's a difficult thing to describe. I want to do these things what the majority of young people of my age do, but another part of me doesn't want to do it because I know that I can't. I don't like drinking alcohol, I don't like noise, I don't like dressing up, I don't like socialising (scratch that - I can't socialise properly), so what good is it if I did go to a bar or a night club? I'd just be standing there in a corner, struggling to fit in with all these rowdy, drunk, sociable teens and youngsters in their 20s. I suppose I'm being sensible about it - I'm not just going along with what I don't want to do, but I really wish Autism didn't affect the social part. Why couldn't it affect my IQ instead and make me into a really dumb person? I'd rather be really dumb but be able to socialise normally, than being unable to socialise normally but being average....actually scratch that - my IQ is only around 75 or something like that.
I hate being alienated and ''missing out'' doing what other people in my peers like to do. I hate it. Sometimes I hit my head to try and punish my brain for being wired this way.

And I am not going out there putting on a false confidence, because if you really haven't got any social confidence in you, it's really not ideal. NTs pick up on false confidence, and it just makes life worse for you. That is a red hot tip.

I hate that I used to be much more severe than I am now, and I acted in a very socially inappropriate way. I'm very embarrassed about it .

Ummm. Lemme think.
I guess going to school and being afraid of every person who isn't a friend, or being talked to by said people and just acting like a rabbit caught in headlights.

Stereotype I hate most... Probably the whole "ass burgers" thing, people thinking that Asperger's isn't a problem for those who suffer from it, that it isn't a 'real' condition and most people are faking it anyway. O.o

Not existing as a human person and perceiving no things and no world

As one Chogyam Trungpa said in a description of a Buddhist hell,

"There's no windows and no doors. You can't even exist, but this threat of nonexistence becomes the food that keeps you alive."

The stereotype that annoys me is of happy aspies aho are all completely technically-minded and passionless.

Well, I guess I don't hate it-not the symptoms itself-but the social stigma that comes with the aspie label. No aspie will make it into hollywood by being honest, political office a no go (hm, I wonder why?) and what else?

Reducing the dating pool to almost zero.

99% of dating is built around socializing. It's the first thing most girls look for - are you sociable?

In Tourette terms, they're known as "rage attacks," but they are really more-or-less the same thing as "meltdowns" known in Aspergers/autism. I actually have the full-fledged "exorcist syndrome" and everything, where my voice drops into this dark-sounding falsetto.

And mostly I just don't like having people afraid of me. It makes me hate the skin that I am in. I believed I was ugly. The people around me thought that I was this evil, terrible, hateful person. I have an ugly side to my personality like everyone does, but the rages have nothing to do with it!

I like that thought. Well put.

That is definitely one of my biggest issues with the condition:
The sort of existential purgatory where you can never really be a full participant in the human world around you, because that world is so frequently defined by social interaction, and that just so happens to be the massive brick wall which you cannot overcome.

The worst stereotype, to me, is the one that Aspies themselves sometimes propagate, which is that Asperger's is just some kind of harmless "difference" that everyone else should just accept. I think it's a serious neurological disorder that can really wreck people's lives.

I hate having the feeling of extreme lonelyness and the extreme hatred of being around people at the same time. I feel I need to be around people but when I get around them all I can think about is escaping them. I'll never understand that.

blowing it with hot girls.

Right now this combination of factors:

I can't tell how well or poorly I do socially, I only have situations to point to where I think I obviously missed the point based on responses, and how people's reactions have been way off the mark from my intentions. My issue is separating what my participation causes from other people's issues as well.

When I try to work out with my therapist (and not just my therapist - I've tried to talk to one other person about this) how much social comprehension and skill I have and where my difficulties are, she cuts me off and tries to reassure me that socially I am fine. She can tell this because I talk to her for an hour per week, one on one, in a dimly lit quiet office, about one of the things that interests me most. I think I'm learning more about possible and actual deficits from kfisherx's social skills training thread.

So my lack of ability to objectively judge my own difficulties because I lack a frame of reference for comparison, and because no one I talk to is willing to let me just go over the information and try to work things out because they think I want reassurance, so apparently I am failing to communicate that reassurance is meaningless and even invalidating.