It's just getting really fustrating. I can feel my PMS symptoms coming back slowly, I've started this set with my classic feeling sick and having a non stop headache. How can that not be physical? That is physical discomfort and pain I really would not choose to feel. I'll have good days & bad days now for about a week then it'll start getting worse to the point where I pose such a risk to other people due to manic moods & aggressive outbursts that I cannot leave the house alone. My boyfriend has also told me I have threatened strangers before. I also have memory loss during these times, another PHYSICAL symptom.
I can't beleive the doctor has not followed this up by refering me to a specialist, I am ill, I didn't ask for anti depressants because I am not depressed! What I am though is fed up. I hate feeling like this & having to eat dry bread & water because I feel too sick to eat anything else. When I discribed this to my mum she had to ask if I was pregnant (which for the record I am not) because a lot of my symptoms are the same as pregnancy ones, like I feel very sick when I first wake up. This says to me that I have some sort of ovarian cycle problem and a serious hormone issue. Within about an hour of my period starting, it's all gone.
I don't want to become a monster this month, but I know I will.
27 Jun 2009, 8:44 am
