Relax with your life under the spectrum.

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I sought out a psychologist because of unbating and negative work themes that i had personally dealt with until this last time when i stopped. After six months with psychologist i could finally see how thoroughly AS i was had always been and had known "on the inside" that this is me all my life. At 56 I felt for the first time that i really did belong to a particular other group of human beings. The relief was big. It took me another 1 1/2 years to get relaxed with this new knowing about myself and some as yet not diagnosed family.

Right now, at this point in time, I am so happy because i can understand MY Personality . At Last I actually have a personality!
So i am relaxed now and relaxing more as i participate here on WP , learning to mingle with others without anxiety and a need to be vigilant against attack.

it is amazing how much the diagnosis itself calmed me down. now instead of wondering what's wrong with me all the time, I spend a lot more time relaxed. it's such a relief.

even though it all fits together and I have a provisional diagnosis, I'm still going to see a neuropsychologist for a full assessment. I want to earn a living and I won't be able to do that if I don't understand what I need to avoid/what I'm good at. but even that isn't worrying me as much as it would have a few months ago.

I'm not as worried about going out and making friends because I'm supposed to have them, so I'm more relaxed.

I'm not worried about looking weird when I hang out in the hallway during kids' school events. the noise and movement are overwhelming. instead of feeling like a freak, making myself stay and ending up melting down, I go wander the halls and my kid knows it's because I'm having sensory overload. more relaxing for both of us.

I'm not worried about going out and getting a job, so I'm more relaxed (although the small income isn't relaxing, I'm not stressing as much over it as I was).

I'm not even as worried about the legal battles with my ex. I wondered why I reacted to him the way I did, now I know it's because he tries to push me into meltdowns, so it's easier to avoid the problems by limiting his access to my life. that means I can relax.

being able to relax is amazing. I hadn't done it for years!

Relax under the spectrum? Not bloody likely! heheh...j/k. I'd like to be relaxing a lot more. Experimenting with various things like fasting and no TV. Well, the no TV thing was a financial necessity. I liked having the TV. Fasting is great past the second day. If not having TV was supposed to make me happy as a clam, it didn't work.

Loneliness is a funny thing. Not much sense in chomping at the bit. My last foray into the land of friendship being a disaster, I'm loathe to go there again. Maybe later.

Mostly I'm a happy camper. My special interests keep me busy rather than obsessing about having no friends. I like my hermitude, but it would be sooo nice to occasionally have a friend to call and do things with.

Here here! I'm overly comfortable with who I am; I have issues with it at times, but I accept that how I am is how I am, and trying to be who/what I'm not isn't going to make life better for myself.

i can relax now that my life is finally back on track. i still have alot of problems but they dont bother me all to much anymore and when they do i pretend im someone cool with no problems