Fear of hospitals

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I like hospitals. Always have. I like the smell of disinfectant (which I now have at home as a precautionary measure against swine flu. And since my mother caught the virus, the whole house is disinfected). And I like the noise the machines make. I want to be a virologist when I'm older, so I'll probably work in either a hospital or a university.

I remember when I went to hospital for a minor operation in 2001 (it was the day after 9-11), and I had a general anaesthetic, and the doctor said I'd be asleep before I can count to five, and I said, "I always take ages to fall asleep, I reckon you're wrong," and then I was like, "One...two...three..." *falls asleep*

I like hospitals too. A hospital is the closest thing to heaven on earth. And when you go by ambulance, you are literally being escorted there by angels. I have had an experience like this several times, and I thoroughly enjoyed it. I live for the moment that this will happen again. When I told this to my psychiatrist, she thought I was nuts.

I don't visit anyone in the hospital because I want too much to be there myself. When I tell this to other people, they laugh and make fun of me and tell me I need to be in the psych ward--I tell them let's go. As a kid, I was even jealous when my family would visit someone in the hospital. I would say I wish it was me---they would laugh and mock me but I wish they had taken me seriously. During that time I was having some serious behavioral issues in school and to me a hospital sounded like a place of refuge--I even considered how to hurt myself (at 11-12 years of age) so that I could go.

Part of the reason I was discharged from my job was for making weird statements. When a customer would come through saying so-and-so is in the hospital, I would say I wish it was me. Someone else came through and mentioned a family member had had a heart attack and I told them that I wished it was me and that I would love to be in that person's shoes. If I had a heart attack, I would not call for help for at least 30 minutes and right before I lost consciousness.

Does what I am saying sound truly like a sick mind or just that of an Aspie having weird ideas?

Last edited by cooler8625 on 02 Jul 2014, 9:09 am, edited 2 times in total.

There's absolutely no reason to be afraid of hospitals, especially abandoned ones with malignant nurse-monsters like this one:

I'm uncomfortable being there because I don't like having appointments & test & things done.

Absolutely terrified of them. When I went yesterday they tried to make me sit in the cubical areas on a chair because I was there under mental health. I actually argued with the lady and told her I'm sitting outside. She was adamant I'm not going anywhere, so got up and walked out and waited outside. That's how afraid of hospitals I am. Soon as I enter one it's instant panic attack, and it doesn't go until I leave the hospital and I'm on the way home. At which point I'm physically worn out, and exhausted.

I don't like them because of my OCD thing.

I am afraid of the germs there. There is a reason why you had to use the shoe cover when visiting someone in hospital - it prevents you from bringing the germs home, right? Of course most hospitals don't use this anymore (they got special carpets instead) but the problem still persist - hospitals floor is one of the most dirty places.

Fortunately I never had to be in a hospital as long as I remember (only when I was born and after eating my moms earing when I was 6 months old). I am only visiting people. I consider the visits not so scary but definitely boring - because of all the caution I take. I am afraid of the germs so I sit in one spot, don't touch anything and try not to breathe too deeply.
And I also honestly hate seeing people connected to a i.v., it makes me very uncomfortable. Seeing the needle put into skin makes me fell a funny sensation in the same spot of my own body. As if there was thousands of ants inside of my arm or something. I hate it. So I try not to look at the needles.

I don't mind. That is the place where I will have to work

I don't like the ER and the nursing. Last monday was a vaccination day and a boy screamed "NO, NO, NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO". Fortunately, the door was closed and I was fairly away.

Wow. That'd be the worst job in the world for me. I'd much rather clean the windows of the tallest building in the world ... and that's scary too.

Does it not affect you when you see people facing death?

i find them rather comforting actually.
the sterile environment, the weird machines, the sounds they make, the magazines...
i always want to just go inside one. in fact one of my earliest memories (i think) was being in a hospital, or being in one when my sister was born. but that may have been just a dream..

I don't know. I haven't seen any agonizing patient (I'm not a med student yet). I've only seen people with headaches, dementia, and vertigo (because I'm shadowing a doctor).

I voted 'other' because as a child I was terrified of them. I had some awful experiences including having a doctor attempt to remove a callus from my small toe with a razor blade when I was about 4 years old.
I then worked in a job that involved Emergency Departments so I got over my fear.

For me, it depends on the situation. I do have a fear of being committed to a mental hospital, but I haven't had any dreams about it in a while. That alone makes me feel very grateful.

HATE hospitals.

hate them,
hate them,
hate them....