darby54 wrote:
I think it's harder for me/aspies than your run-of-the-mill perfectionist because the hyperfocus state I'm always in requires larger amounts of energy to shift the focus, if that makes any sense.
Certainly it does for me......once I'm locked onto a task, to break out of it is like trying to turn a juggernaut round in a 3-foot alley.
And performing a task that I can't lock onto is painful. Like clearing out a cupboard - the only protocol I can work out for such a job seems immense - take each item in turn, identify it, determine whether or not I need to keep it; if not, do I throw it away or give it away? Who do I give it to? If I decide to keep it, I need to decide on a place to put it....does it need protection from getting squashed? From heat/dust/light? Will its new place render it suitably accessible, given the number of times I'm likely to use it? How will I order these items logically so that the I'll be able to remember their new locations? When there is competition for space, which items take precedence? But I'm only mucking out a cupboard....I shouldn't try to do it perfectly or it'll take me weeks....then where should I allow imperfection? Surely any fool can clear out a cupboard, this shouldn't be hard - why am I so incompetent/lazy/undisciplined?
So I decide to just try to muddle through without turning it into degree-level stock control, and my mind yells "this isn't going to work!" Then while in the throes of this messy, fiddly job, I notice a cherished item I'd misplaced years ago......my attention locks onto it and I set about examining it, restoring it, trying it out, remembering the hours of fun I've had using it. Suddenly, time's up and I realise I've failed to achieve the target.