Has anyone ever been this paranoid?

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I had the same issues when I was a kid, and teen. Not only that, but I was stupid enough to mention them to my psychologist. Since, obviously they didn't take that well, I became paranoid of telling anyone my thoughts. I have a really hard time explaining my feelings, and thoughts well, and it seems that NTs instinctively know what kinds of info they should, or should not share with others. I don't have that instinct, and especially when I was younger, I had a lot of stuff that I told people in confidence (at least I thought) used against me.

No, I've not had paranoia this badly. I tend to have slightly paranoid responses to stress, but they pass quickly, and are usually only directed at the people involved in whatever stressed me.

same kind of thing happens to me when these doctors would make me have medicine to treat me for a condition they want me to have and not aspergers

they think schitzophrenia and other anti psychotic medicine is the way to treat your condition that they admit you do not meet the diagnosis for and still just have to have since you have problems

do not take any medicine that has in the list of side effects things that is a symptom of mental illness

doctors do not admit to the side effect list when the side effects you get help them prove what they already decided to find so do not let things be possible to get new problems they can use

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I've dealt with a lot of anxiety about malevolent supernatural events when I was younger and had experiences and didn't understand how the mind can trick you. It got so bad I was trying to go to school after having fallen asleep at 3 am from exhaustion. I got really tired of it and decided if the bogeyman was going to get me then there was nothing I could do about it. Still I was sleeping with the bathroom light on when I was a teenager.


I had the same issues when I was a kid, and teen. Not only that, but I was stupid enough to mention them to my psychologist. Since, obviously they didn't take that well, I became paranoid of telling anyone my thoughts. I have a really hard time explaining my feelings, and thoughts well, and it seems that NTs instinctively know what kinds of info they should, or should not share with others. I don't have that instinct, and especially when I was younger, I had a lot of stuff that I told people in confidence (at least I thought) used against me.

I was put on Thorazine for just such a reason. Of course they only told me it was to help me sleep. This was after describing my first hypnagogic hallucination. It was a bunch of coat hangers all tangled up and hanging in mid air. I was very curious about it but it never occurred to me that it meant anything. At that point I had developed an interest in altered states of consciousness. Anyway the first thing the shrink asked me was what the coat hangers were going to " do to me"- It struck me even at 15 that that was a stupid question. Later, still with this interest in mind I told him of being in my bedroom and suddenly seeing a bright flash of light. That was it-I was going on meds (not the anti-depressants I really needed). I was on them for a while still thinking they were just to help with my insomnia. I decided to go off without telling my parents. I know now not to do that but I was determined to beat the anxiety and the insomnia on my own. Years later I was standing in my old bedroom and saw the same flash of light. I looked and realized that the setting sun was reflecting off a neighbors screen door when they opened it. The street is on a slight incline and they were farther up. Thank heavens I went off on my own.

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I used to think I would succumb to a dread disease as a child, after reading about them in science books. And cancer can rear its ugly head, as one of my kids' aunts has just found out.