Egads, this may be the most offensive post I've read in some time. A person does not "outgrow" autism. The entire spectrum is neurological so a person will be born with it and carry it until the very end. Granted, many of us learn skills and strategies to adapt to the larger society and be as functional as possible. Thought of "outgrowing" AS is the danger of self-diagnosis. Anyone can go through the DSM-IV or read a magazine article and identify with individual traits of any condition.
anneurysm wrote:
I'm at a time in my life where I can safely say that I've "grown out" of my diagnosis of Asperger's. I am atypical of many people on the spectrum in that over the past 2-3 years, I have become increasingly (and successfully) social.
I have many close friends of both sexes, have lovers, enjoy meeting new people and love parties/social get togethers. I see friends nearly every day that I haven't reserved for studying, class or errands. Some people refer to me as a vagabond as I often stay over at multiple friend's places on the weekends. I also take an anti-anxiety/depressant pill which has halted my anxiety, obsessive thinking and attachments to certain subjects/people/objects. In other words, if you had no knowledge of my background, you'd likely see me as a fun loving, enthusiastic, empathic NT.
When I look at my life, I see an image of success despite struggle...but I was also such an interesting child and teen, with many gifts and talents that, if nurtured, would have made me much more vibrant of a person than I am now.
In the prime of my full-blown Aspie years, I created these "projects" where I would research a very specific topic (e.g. milk cartons, silos, bathing suit backs) or create imaginary worlds complete with geography and characters. I would fully immerse myself in these projects, devoting all of my waking hours into writing down everything in great detail. These projects of mine would enthrall adults, but bore my peers to death. Looking back on my life at this time, I see the dedication and passion for these projects as unequalled to the things that typical peers were involved with at the time.
Another aspect of myself that I feel I lost when I gained social awareness was my intelligence, particularly in the area of reading, writing, and communication skills. I was labelled as "hyperlexic" and "verbally gifted" and was found to be reading at a grade seven level in kindergarten.
Now, I'm in university and my profs tell me that I can't write an essay worth crap. I'm not saying that I have lost my academic skills altogether, but they have most definitely degraded from the time I gained social awareness. When I became focused on pleasing others and refining my social skills, I became less focused in school: my grades also dropped from high As in high school/college to straight B+s in university. I realize the fact that your grades do shift when you first start attending university: but I'm now in my third year and mine haven't changed. I've also become more cynical and apathetic towards university/institutionalized learning as a result, preferring to gain knowledge/realizations via my creative friends.
The thing is, though, that I am too used to the norms of the 'real world' to be able to gain all of these abilities back. I am far too self-aware to just ignore people and focus on my projects and schoolwork like I used to. I feel as if I don't have the focus and passion that I used to have for academics and particular subjects, as instead this focus has gone towards social skills.
What does everyone think? Do you agree or disagree with this particular phenomenon? Has anyone else gone through a similar experience?
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NTs have issues, Aspies have characteristics.