AS vs HFA quietness

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I voted "other", and feel invisible yet again.

First off, I don't believe in HFA vs. MFA vs. LFA or whatever, for reasons I've gotten into so many times I don't feel like getting into it again.

Second off, my diagnosis isn't AS, HFA, or PDD-NOS. It's autism. Just autism. Sometimes (and against my wishes, but it's been said) doctors have used terms like low-functioning or severe. (Please don't stereotype me based on this. Stereotypes based on any functioning label will turn out too wrong to explain briefly.)

As far as why I'm quiet (when I'm quiet)? Because language is really fricking hard. Because it takes an effort, like climbing a cliff with my fingernails, to climb into the realm of language at all, to even understand language when it's presented to me as anything other than noises and squiggles and such. (See here and here and here for details.)

Not the only reason but the biggest reason. And just as my diagnosis isn't listed, neither is my biggest reason for remaining quiet. (There are other reasons. Most of which don't match anything listed. I don't know the words for many of them right now.)

I had to pick "Other"
I'm not self diagnosed, but I am undiagnosed, & I think like both someone with AS & someone with HFA. Sometimes, I just truly have nothing to say & don't want to talk, & other times, I'm too scared to talk.

In the (once in a blue moon) event that I do wish to talk with someone, I havea limitation not covered in the original post here: I have absolutely nothing to say.
Some years ago a woman in the neighbourhood was very kind to me in a situation where I needed someone, and since I have wanted to 'pay her back' by being nice to her (not that I was unfriendly to her to start with, I just make an actual effort now), I have tried talking to her when I meet her (she's a social one), but I can't come up with anything to say. A complete blank. I am limited to responding friendly to her when she says something.
I can't even come up with much to say about her dog!

I'm an aspie and both options apply to me. Sometimes I really want to say something, but can't seem to do it for some reason. Some other times I don't wish to participate in the conversation and am fine with keeping my thoughts on the subject to myself.

I'm quiet because I feel a natural detachment from most people. I only talk to people if I need something or feel a natural attachment.

I'm quiet because I feel a natural detachment from most people. I only talk to people if I need something or have a natural attachment.

Diagnosed with AS, but its really both reasons for me. Most people I just have no desire to talk to, but when I do want to talk I can't fit it into the conversation or can't come up with something worth saying (not to mention that starting a conversation is really difficult most of the time so I try to join ones already going on).

I first got diagnosed AS as a child, then another two neuropsychologists dx'd HFA, but generally the reason I remain quiet is due to a lack of desire to talk, or due to the inability to form sentences coherently in the course of conversation.