lyricalillusions wrote:
I've felt like there's some sort of barrier keeping me from the rest of the world & keeping me from being able to fully exist within it and be myself.
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It feels like I've spent my life inside of a bubble, or a piece of film, or some other invisible barrier that keeps me from being able to really be a part of the world & really be me in it. But really, it exists within me. Like there's a solid, yet invisible (to the rest of the world) thing keeping me from being able to fully participate or relate or exist in the world, amongst people. I feel like the real me is trapped inside of me, inside of my body, maybe, & I can't get out.
Yes.
Something like this?
http://www.wrongplanet.net/postx96277-0-0.html
The world i live in "feels fake". At times, i break out of my own "numbness" and i sense more of the real world. If that is how everyone else perceives the world, i want to experience the world like that too.
And no, it has nothing to do with drugs, or alcohol. Its just how i perceive the world, and i cant do a damn thing about it.
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