Do you try and avoid cracks/lines in side walk?

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When I was a kid, I had a fear of grills and sewer covers. When one would appear on a sidewalk, I would run around it instead of over it. I was afraid it would cave in with me on it. My mom told me, repeatedly, it wouldn't happen, but I refused to walk over them, nonetheless.

I never step on cracks in the sidewalk. I'm 30. Not too long ago I decided to force myself to step on the cracks, because it is a bit silly. But that didn't last long. Walking is something I do that is calming. Stepping on the cracks was making me feel, not quite anxious. But it seemed wrong. Out of place. I decided that my weird way of walking wasn't really a problem.

I swear when I started avoiding cracks as a kid it was just a game to keep my mind occupied. Who knows when it turned into an obsessive compulsion.

I also refuse to walk over grates. I'm sure that my shoe will get caught in one and I'll end up tripping. Considering what a klutz I am, I don't think this one is irrational.

Sometimes, for fun.

I've done that since I was about 6 years old. At about the same time I decided the left foot had to be the first into each new concrete square. Left foot always goes before right. This rule has been branded into my neurons.

I avoided cracks in sidewalks as a kid, but I largely grew out of it. I think I did it by making myself not look at the ground as I was walking. I wonder now, so many years later, if my main obsession was making myself seem like every one else around me. I can remember putting so much effort into changing my habits up until I was in my early twenties.

But here are a few habits I have successfully grown out of:
-Not stepping on cracks.
-Repeatedly rubbing the palms of my hands on my pants at the dinner table when I was moments away from eating a meal, to the point where the friction built up would almost feel like burning on the palms of my hands (is this an example of stimming? I'm not sure).
-Counting the number of steps between seams in the concrete sidewalk, and attempting to keep the number of steps even between left and right foot, either two or four steps total, always starting with the left foot in the square and ending with the right foot in a given square.
-Staring at the ground when walking.
-Slouching when walking (I get comments, typically positive, on my posture when standing or walking. I wonder if I'm taking it a little too far now? It seems to draw more than average attention).

Some habits I have not broken, or see no need to break:
-When there is more than one type of food on my plate, I must eat one to completion, then move on to the next. Even though I know it's all going to the same place, there must be no mixing of foods!
-When chewing, I space the food out so the left and right molars are used in equal amounts. At first, as with other habits, I start with the left side, then the right side on the next bite of food. I figured this would look weird, so I started taking a bite, surreptitiously divided the bite in half in my mouth, then chewed on both sides at the same time, thus ensuring both sides are used equally before swallowing my food. No less weird, but I feel like it's less noticeable.
-I count the steps when taking the stairs. This is an absolute must. If I know the number of steps, I'll always make sure I end on the right foot. Odd number of steps, I start with the right foot, and left foot with even. I can't break this one for some reason.

It's amazing how similar we all can be sometimes without even knowing each other. I was expecting people to say they avoid cracks sometimes. I'm so relieved to know that others take it as far as doing it compulsively. Also I never expected other people to also step over imaginary intersecting lines created from smaller cracks in the sidewalk. Like if there is a diagonal crack that doesn't go over the entire length of the square. I'll keep tracing the direction and step over where it would've been. This gets very tricky when there are a lot of cracks. Also it can result in me looking not so normal. I also sometimes have to clear each square in a certain number of steps. It's like you all are inside my head, writing my answers before I can even think of them.

Yeah, but it not because of the "step on a crack, break your mother's back" thing. I just always had that habit. Also on tilled floors, I'll sometimes skip a tile wile leaping.
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Sometimes I do, just as a little game in my head really.

Fairly often.

I avoid cracks and lines on the floor, I also avoid imaginary lines coming from legs of chairs and corners on the ground. It used to be very bad but now its not so much a compulsion, but just a little mind game.