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From being bullied, disapointment. My non sensory meltdows usualy start with rage. I've actualy hurt people from rage. I had more rage as a kid than true shutdown meltdowns. My mum still has scars from trying to handle them. Yes, scars. I would attack physicaly and actualy hurt people. I hope some of the kids and teachers who bullied me have scars...and not just physical ones. Twisted Evil I bit a kid so hard I drew blood but then he was sticking his fingers in my face and going, "Bite me, bite me" Somehow I doubt a third grader understands that "bite me" is also slang for get lost. Anyhow, kids liked to see me explode so they would tease and taunt me until I had a meltdown. My meltdowns usualy resulted in my hurting someone, you think the bullies would catch on and leave me alone but maybe they liked getting hurt.
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I can really relate to this this was me all through school, especially when I was younger. I seem to remember this even in Highschool, but I think the daily doses of alcohol and weed were dampening a lot of this out for me by then. Unfortunately, self-medication didn't work well for me long term, so I had to quit. I did occasionally hurt someone, but usually it was wild swinging punches through a filter of red and tears. Even when i did do some damage, uncontrollable shaking and crying never won me any respect.