hale_bopp wrote:
I pretty much assume everyone hates me, all the time. Even "friends". This is what I automatically assume about people:
a) Worry that they talk behind your back
b) Worry that they make fun of you when you're gone
c) Tell lies about you
d) Start hating you for no reason
e) Just start hating you
f) Everything I do or say pisses people off
I only don't think like this with family.
I think part of this stems from the fact most aspies DID have teenagers doing these things. Then it continues in adult life.
I do worry that people say negative things about me to others, because I have been present when people have done so, and I worry that people will get mad at me for some reason I don't understand because that's happened so frequently.
I have been the victim of horrible treatment by people, usually by groups of people rather than by individuals. But I don't believe that they give enough consideration of me as an individual that I could say that they were acting toward
me. Their consideration of "me" seems limited to any way in which I am different to the norm. They couldn't describe me except to point out ways in which I am unusual.
There are some who don't do this, but in general they seem to treat anyone horribly who doesn't behave like them and I just happen to be one of the people who doesn't behave like them. It seems acceptable and possibly even expected among them to ostracize and torment anyone who is not completely "normal".