hitting the wall/ just stopping/ feeble mindedness??

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Housework is that hard, at least for me. When I was first living alone, that threw me into overload easily. I could only do one and a half tasks or under that per day. Where one task might be eating, another might be drinking water, another might be using the bathroom, another might be housework. And given that just understanding what objects are is strainful for me, as well as things like recognizing where my body is and moving, these took me all day and completely wiped me out and threw me into a state where I couldn't understand anything or move. (Long description here: http://ballastexistenz.autistics.org/?p=7 and more in part of this post: http://ballastexistenz.autistics.org/?p=252 )

yes! this is what i mean!
but its never diminshed for me... this is why- eating crisps= easy (guarenteed parity of taste)- making a sandwich- WAAAAYYYY too much to deal with (it'll taste different each time, i have to keep making decisions etc) ... BUT im also - well. sometimes- an AMAZING cook- especially pastries- i make choux to DIE for.

so whaty am i/we getting overloaded about- i dont get it. w the housework- there is very little happening- so why do i flake out?

my brain seems unable to distinguish between stressful decisions and benign ones. diving into some encompassing activity is fine- even if i have to make choices there... but- my god!! ! washing up? why???

anyway- ha! sorry you have/had it too, but glad im not a freak alone.