ParadoxalParadigm wrote:
My parents can't stand a lot of my stimming because of how they think people view me, but they didn't realize that I just couldn't stop -- literally. Now that I know what it is, I'm angry that they would force me to stop, especially because I don't think people's views of me change when/if they see me stimminig, especially in less 'abnormal' ways, at least I don't think so...
I read somewhere, that there are different types of stims. Two that I do very often that go unnoticed by people are the 'squinting' or the 'fading' visual stims: Quote:
The Squint
This is where you mostly close your eyes and all lights take on a funny appearance. Tilting your head one way or another would make those those lights "dance".
The Fade
Unlike the squint which relies on eye closure and head movement, the fade is more of a stare. I found that if you looked very closely at an object, you could get the surrounding areas to fade to grey. It's hard to achieve a complete fadeout because the slightest movement will cause the picture to return.
Taken from http://life-with-aspergers.blogspot.com ... -feel.html
I've tried describing to people these two things -- especially the fade, because when I get really concentrated on a speaker, I stare at him until he starts to literally have a glowing aura and everything else has turned to grey. No one has believed me when I've described this, but now I really understand it. I do the squint often as well...
So many things...
My parents were/are also disapproving of stimming. My mom would body-block me while I was pacing. And I didn't know that the fading and squinting were stims. I totally do that. I didn't even know that was a thing. I also used to constantly pick at split ends, I don't know if that counts as a stim, but now that my hair is short and I can't do that, I constantly twist chunks of hair. I thought that was interesting how it changed.
27 Dec 2010, 1:03 pm
