Do you feel the NEED to worry about something all the time?

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I try not to worry, but I do. I can't help it. My mind is so active, funnily enough the only time it calms down is when I'm in bed. For most people (if not, everyone), bedtime is the worst time where all the worries come. But with me, I worry and worry all day about different things, starting from the minute I wake up in the morning to the minute I get into bed at night - then my brain switches off. Well, not all of it, but my conscience switches off. When I get into bed, I put on a DVD/video, and my whole mind gets focused on the film so that it doesn't think about anything else (which is good) then afterwards I'm either tired enough to fall asleep straight away, or if not I lay and think about my obsessions, which makes me happy and relaxed. I think about the man I have a crush on, and imagine he is laying in bed next to me, which also takes my mind off of things.

I suppose I could go out one day and try not to worry about anything. But I'm afraid that if I do that, I might suddenly feel or act like the opposite - somebody who worries about nothing at all and acts a bit simple or careless about themselves, etc. Not saying it definately happens, but I fear it might happen to me. Being an Aspie, I'm either one extreme or the other.

Otherwise, I'd be bored. If not bored or worried, then having fun, but then worrying every so often about other things simultaneously. So yeah, I suppose I always worry. Usually about school-related things, which I don't cause on my own. Unless you count procrastinating as something I cause... which I guess it is...
I'm going off on a lot of tangents today...