I'm lucky, in a twisted sort of way, that I've never really wanted friends and always have had this undercurrent of contempt for society as a whole. Even from the time school kids were bullying me, my wish wasn't for companionship but for folks to just leave me the heck alone. So I can honestly say they didn't want me and I didn't want them either. I know, I know, I'm being hateful, but that's how I've dealt with my relationship to the world without breaking down.......again.
I didn't have my first true friends until my late 20s and I must emphasize the word "true" as they accepted my true self, not some superficial personality I put on to be more sociable. One of them, my ex-boyfriend, had aspie traits too and our bond was beyond anything I've experienced in this world. Eventually, life had separate paths for us, however, but the time we spent together was valuable in my understanding of people.
My indifference toward humanity has turned into detached appreciation. I'm not actively seeking friends as I don't feel many people would accept my quirks but I try to interact with them with compassion. I just hope NTs can, in time, learn to relate to us the same way.
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