Do you NOT KNOW you are stimming?

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Yes many times.
Just recently I was in class in college working in a group when all of a sudden they all asked if I was okay.
THen I noticed it was because I was stimming. Rocking a little and moving my legs and hand.

I was just on a teleconference, where I could see myself on one section of the TV monitor. I was asking myself the question, "How do I look to NTs", and I checked out my image periodically. I saw myself as relatively normal looking, but my posture seemed unnaturally stiff and motionless. I actually was stimming all the time; I was just careful to keep it out of range of the camera.

Yes, this is me exactly! Now that I know about stims, I often notice myself doing them, nowadays. But I don´t have to be stressed to stim, I do it essentially all the time. And if I make an effort to stop a stim, I´ll just go onto something else about 30 seconds later, so I figure why bother?

Besides, I think one of the reasons I am able to get by in the world is due to my stimming. I think they focus me, or help me concentrate or something.

I tend to bite the insideof my lip a lot and move my lips in odd shapes. I'm not aware of this until someone tells me a scary story about doing that to your lips. They always tell me "your lips are going to become deformed if you do that to often".
My lips aren't deformed...yet..lol. So yeah.

I also rock my leg.

I tend to shout out my general personal business in public instead of talking at an ordinary volume, and I don't seem to realise that I'm talking too loudly and that other people are hearing and might be listening. Does that count as stimming, or not?

Otherwise, I don't stim, and if I do decide to stim, I always know I'm doing it.

Sometimes I'm aware of it and at other times I won't realize for quite a while what I'm doing. When I was a child I twisted my hair and bit my knuckles almost to the bone for many years, but I didn't know what it was called or what it was related to. My daughter bit her fingers until they were raw and it took a long, long time to get them to heal, but now for about the last 6 months or more her right leg shakes in an uncontrolable manner, I was debating whether I should take her to the doctor just in case it was something else when I by chance caught the movie on Temple Grandin and I saw her leg do the same thing, I guess that answered it!

Often.

I wake up at my desk to realize - hanky in mouth, left leg vibrating.

I stop myself hoping noone important has seen

Hanky in pocket. Leg stll back to reading or typing - and 5 minutes later -

I wake up, hanky in mouth, leg going up down.

Repeat