katzefrau wrote:
i did not recognize my sensory issues as such (despite having moved because of a nearby barking dog, had outbursts at people over noises and smells, and other things) until identifying that i had AS for social and cognitive reasons. but then it became obvious quickly. my sensory issues, especially surrounding noise, are not mild. i did not realize i was perceiving certain things differently than others, and i just thought that i had an anger management problem and a problem of being almost pathologically intolerant to a lot of annoyances, and i was spaced out so often i was hardly even present to take anything in. as a consequence of talking about it in therapy also, and much time spent picking everything apart and recognizing these issues a bit better for what they are, i space out less, stim more (which i did not know i was doing either), get angry at people much much less frequently, and am very consciously pained by a lot of noises. while this sounds like things have gotten worse since the realization, it is not so. i know how to accommodate my needs better and am more functional.
Yes, this. I felt like my sensitivities were getting worse as I realized I was autistic, but I think they're the same, I am just more aware of them and reacting directly to them rather than reacting without realizing I am reacting to them.
I've also been to night clubs in the past. I find music tends not to overload me the way, say, barking dogs or screaming people or loud televisions or whatever does.
21 Mar 2011, 10:19 pm
