pensieve wrote:
Verdandi wrote:
A weird part for me was describing what I thought were mild examples of say, how I deal with routines and disruptions to those routines (like unannounced visitors: The answer is I don't deal with them) and have them described back to me as "extremely rigid."
I could actually tell through you're posts that your issues weren't mild.
I remember you saying before, and it was a bit of a surprise then too.
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I lock myself in my room too with music up. With mormons or whoever I actually don't see them coming. I'm too much into my own interests and there's no way to peek once someone is at the door. So I just nod 'yes yes' and thank them for the latest item to add to my recycle bin.
My window is right next to the front door, so I can usually hear people coming up if I don't have my headphones on, although I can't really look at them if they're in front of the door. I usually let other people answer, although lately I've actually had an easier time answering the door (and more rarely, the phone) for some reason.
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People really don't understand why we seek a diagnoses. When we begin to notice we are different and that this whole time there were others that actually related to us when we thought we could only be the only person like this, it's a relief and it's good to have it written down in paper.
My diagnoses only gets me on a pension and an employment service but as far as treating my symptoms it doesn't do much. There's promises of social skills classes that never happen. But with a diagnoses of ADHD at least you get on medication. By the way, will you be going on medication?
My diagnoses might help me with SSI, yes. There's also been talk of some other supports with the AS diagnoses. And talking to other autistic people has been pretty amazing as far as that goes.
Yes to the medication - although because of my anxiety, probably not stimulants. I'll try Wellbutrin, most likely, and if that fails, then maybe Strattera. If that fails, I'll push for a low stimulant dose.
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An official diagnoses also puts an end to the uncertainty of knowing for sure if you have AS or not. People really don't understand how confusing and frustrating that time of your life is like.
Oh, yes. I had some really weird anxieties about this. It did get harder and harder to indulge them as things became more and more obvious, but it really does help to hear a professional say it's real.