I'm very much like this. But I'm coming to believe it can be just part of your personality. Friends often say that they'll not see me for afew months, and when they catch up with me again I'm a completely different person and they'll have to adjust to this new personality. A friend once said I'm a chameleon, as changeable as water, with nothing solid or constant in my nature. And yes, I'm often changing my name, my gender, my occupation, my address, everything about me from my diet to my interests to my body itself. I've been thinking about this in terms of satisfaction - I recently caught up with an old friend I went to school with, who is perfectly at peace with the idea that she will work her job forever, stay living where she grew up, never make much money or acquire any new skills, never travel or change. She will just continue, and she is happy with that.
Me, I'm always striving for more. I doubt ambition is a uniquely aspie trait. I can never stay at one thing long because I have to constantly seek, improve, change. I can't bear to stagnate. I'm an advocate of "the grass is always greener on the other side" because I'll never know if it is unless I get there. Maybe that's just my interpretation.
23 Apr 2011, 7:02 am
