Do people not understand you when you talk?

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I seem to run into this issue almost constantly. I’ve developed the habit of speaking very quietly, especially when around many people (which the issue is amplified by the fact that there’s a greater volume of noise floating around). I have a dreadful fear of being wrong; really not a good fear to have as I’ve come to realize it hampers potential social and intellectual growth. This fear is only present in social situations where the learning would come about via another person’s correction; I take no issue with being wrong and exploring alternatives on my own. This is probably due to a vast ocean that has accumulated from people throwing cold water in my face at different times.

So, I’ve developed the habit of speaking quietly as a defense against potential assaults on what I say, especially when the attack could come from many fronts. I know that I should not bind my esteem to ideas I put forth and should rather just pursue the idea for the sake of an ideal. This would be fine, however I have noticed, and increasingly so with age and greater complexity, that when I attempt to put words to a thought the meaning is usually lost because I don’t establish a context to what it is that I say. So, when I say something I will have in mind a set of premises surrounding an idea and will make a statement that is sort a convergence of these premises without actually providing a large set of the information that’s in my mind. Basically I make an attempt at providing a sound bit version of what’s going on in my mind and often miss the mark. I probably wouldn’t be as opposed to voicing my thoughts if i were actually putting forward the thought I was intending to in a clear and concise manner. It’s either this or long winded rambling of different structural components of my idea and hoping that the connections are evident.

I also find myself saying the wrong thing all together, like ill replay back what I said in my head attempting to look at it while disregarding the priorly mention premises I have in mind, only to realize I’ve used wrong words or am missing words completely; but oh well such is my life. To be honest, I’m sure this doesn’t even make a whole lot of sense.