Anyone else not tell anyone about their AS/autism?

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If I get that upset about telling people about having AS, I could always just tell them about my Dyspraxia, of my possible ADD. I don't visibly give out any Autistic traits at all, because most are all mostly locked inside my head. I don't flap my hands or rock backwards and forwards, or hum loudly, or make weird animal noises, or do anything like that at all, and I never have done (which is lucky for me because that can give it away a bit). I may complain more than anything, but that's due to my anxiety disorder. I find social situations hard to attend to, but that could be due to my shyness and also high anxiety disorder, in other people's eyes. I have taught myself to not talk too much about my special interests to friends (there is no harm in talking about it a bit), and I don't have meltdowns with friends, even if I am familiar with them. I just do at home, which is my most familiar environment where I feel I can let rip if I felt like it (and I don't mean farting).

Only a few friends know and an art teacher (this one was a mistake). The art teacher said I didn't because I wasn't diagnosed. But the only reason I told her was to explain why I had acted strangely uncalled-for one day, because otherwise she would have told my mom. I tried telling my mom once, but she just dismissed it, because she's so used to me and figures I'm just different. Which is exactly what I am, except she feels there doesn't need to be a label for it. I agree. I felt she really didn't need to know, and never will. She could know and all it would do is explain why I was so weird as a child and a teenager and soon, a young adult.
I think I don't have to tell people anymore unless it's absolutely necessary. Because I've never been diagnosed, and I no longer have the need to. I have known for a very long time. It's been a problem before but not so much now. I've been able to adapt to the point where I could just pass as a socially awkward kid who like dragons and Owl City. And that's completely fine. My friends who know are very accepting of it. They don't speak of it because they don't have to. One of those friends is my best friend who was diagnosed with ADHD, but suspects herself to Asperger's as well. I don't encourage nor discourage her to get diagnosed, because there's no need to, all the same.
I think if I would tell anyone in the future, it would be because I did something really ridiculous... Welp...