Explain the feeling you get when your throughts or interests

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Actually its more than slightly annoying.
Its like somebody suddenly running up to you, shouting "WAKEY WAKEEEEY!! !" in your face, slapping you multiple times and then picking up and throwing whatever you're doing out of a nearby window.

I feel irritated and frustrated. I tune out everything around me so when someone finally gets my attention it takes me time to process what they are saying. I often have to get them to repeat what they said because I will see their lips moving and not hear what they are saying.

I get mad. My husband gets mad. My daughter gets mad, and if she needs to stop doing what she is doing (because we need to go out, for example), she can go into meltdown mode.

I feel dysphoria when interrupted. Feels like being without a cigarette for hours condensed into a few minutes. Thanks, even those statements correlate with my current ideas. I have developed the idea of microaddictions to patterns of stimulus. When one is being rewarded by their interest it feels like satisfaction perpetuating. When there is no more patterning the neural signals invert and cause microwithdrawal from the instant norepinephrine release and downregulation of natural endorphins. The norepinephrine causes the angry outbursts, panic, and those further decrease serotonin causing a drop in mood. This model is getting more interesting,

It's been suggested that this 'withdrawal' you are exploring is also experienced by the NT crowd as well except their addiction/withdrawal cycle corrolates to the endorphine high they get from social interaction. Same mechanism, different stimulus.

Anger initially and then I am totally distracted... most of the time I don't return to what I was doing.

Shanti get angry. RAAAR!! !

Since I usually get yelled at for being angry or being so focused on something I kind of take time out to give people some time and then try to go back to what I was doing. It's easier on medication.

Keeping me away from my interests for a long time is when I get really angry.

My thoughts are always being interrupted because I'm always just zoning out and getting lost in them.

I don't really mind it, I can get back into what I'm doing fairly easily.

When I am interupted I get really annoyed because my thoughts had been building and I probably wont be able to get to the same place again easily. When Im really into someone I become unaware of whats around me and when Im interupted I have a hard time getting back into it. If I can't lose myself in it again its not quite as enjoyable or meaningful to me.

For me it's this:

One time, it was the middle of the night. I'm sound asleep in Lala land with Tokio Hotel on a beach somewhere when I hear a loud SMASH! from the apartment upstairs. It jolts me awake of course and scares me b/c I think I'm getting robbed turns out, the neighbors upstairs were having another 4 am arguement.
Of course I'm in the bed thinking "Move out so I can sleep! Please!"

foggy, like its hard to focus on the world and it takes a long while to pull my mind back from wherever it was. its hard to convince myself the rest of the world is still here and it takes longer for stuff to sink in- like people talking to me and i'll realise theyre talking a few seconds after they start and hear them a little after that and decipher their words after that or the world seeming blurry. if something is keeping me from it then my need to research it grows like a mental hunger, this great unsatisfied need to read and know all. i am devoured.

I feel like I need to keep doing whatever it was I was doing. Like it would be impossible to start something new, if the current conversation or activity is unfinished. To me it used to feel, illogical. I also knew that I wouldn't be able to think clearly on another subject, because Im already too drawn into the current subject. Its like, I have to read a book a certain way, which focuses on the details, so it becomes difficult to read another, without finishing the one current one, for Im already reading it a certain way that seems relevant to that book at that time. So I had a lot of trouble in school, transitioning from one activity to another. Im getting better though.