Guineapigged wrote:
Do you feel shame about being so obsessed?
Generally speaking, the more obsessed I am with something, the more private I am likely to keep it. This is because I find it difficult to judge how deeply I can go into a topic before others perceive it as "weird" or "creepy". Therefore, it's safer to just not say anything at all.
This, and yes, I feel shame, because other than my one track mind, I present as completely normal, and I am extremely eager to please. Therefore, I try to hide as much of the weirdness about me as possible. It can get hard, though, as some of my interests are extremely detailed, focused, and strange. I keep them hidden as much as possible, and generally speaking, I avoid talking about them altogether.
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Given a “tentative” diagnosis as a child as I needed services at school for what was later correctly discovered to be a major anxiety disorder.
This misdiagnosis caused me significant stress, which lessened upon finding out the truth about myself from my current and past long-term therapists - that I am an anxious and highly sensitive person but do not have an autism spectrum disorder.
My diagnoses - social anxiety disorder and obsessive-compulsive disorder.
I’m no longer involved with the ASD world.