I have to admit ive hurt myself by gouging my nails into my face until my forehead and cheeks bled. Ive slammed my head on many different things and pulled out my hair. I've never tried to hurt anyone, though. I'm embarrassed to write this, but it is true.
Joined: 12 Nov 2011 Age: 47 Gender: Male Posts: 2,725
26 Jan 2012, 6:56 am
The two most common reasons for violence in AS are a violated personal justice code and meltdowns. Overall people on the spectrum are less likely to be violent than the general population.
Joined: 24 Oct 2011 Age: 54 Gender: Male Posts: 2,177
26 Jan 2012, 8:43 pm
I have aggressive verbal outbursts and sometimes kick a piece of furniture or slam a door, but never in public or in company. When I'm around people, I only go into a terrified shock-like state and act like a robot.
I don't think I could ever hurt a living being. I wish ill on people who have hurt me and I've had the occasional violent fantasy, but I never got into a fight. Not even as a kid. I was always too scared to fight back or stand up for myself. I also can't verbally defend myself when I feel treated unfairly. Any form of confrontation scares me.
Joined: 24 Oct 2011 Age: 54 Gender: Male Posts: 2,177
26 Jan 2012, 8:50 pm
layla87 wrote:
I agree, I have sometimes explosive episodes of anger that last seconds, compared to NT's who can hold grudges for years
I can hold grudges like the best of the NTs I'm like an elephant that way. I never forget an insult or injustice or a betrayal.
I can (pretend to) forgive people, but I'm keeping a mental checklist and avoid those who have hurt me too often. That's why I no longer have any contact with my family.